previous posts from wordpress

hi guys! here are some of the posts from my wordpress. enjoy:)


20.08.08

i know i can, i know i can, cause i have Jesus with me! yes i can!

it's quite a neutral feeling even though it's two weeks away from the immersion trip. i am not sure whether i am excited at the prospect of being a student leader, after yesterday's heated argument with the aerospace gentlemen. to make an appointment with me before my flight, you can either email, text or phone me. i will be available for the next entire week. hahaha :)

yes it's the final paper tomorrow, but i am not mugging! i shall start after this post...

people are suffering everyday, even in our own society. nkt once mentioned to me that going for missions are a waste of time. "why should we go out to help people when we ourselves are having problems too? first solve our own problems then we can focus on going on missions to help those in need."

honestly i was quite disappointed in this answer/excuse. yes it's true that we have have our own problems to ponder on, but does that restricts us from reaching out to the unreached people? NO. it's a stand i have to make, not even the mountains are able to waiver my decision on becoming a missionary in the next few years. looking back at the above mentioned trip, and as i am typing this post, i suddenly got back that adrenaline urge to want to get out of town now. if we were to first solve our problems then reach out to the unreached, by that time armageddon would have come to annihilate every living thing in this world. it's an excuse, and we are being selfish.

i hope this would leave us to do our own self reflections... sometimes in life, it's not always about us.

your friendly neighbourhood,

spiderman

19.08.09

right after the final attachment presentation, i was touched by some of my classmates who waited for me at makan place.

and an argument took place in just a few minutes over my presentation.

i thought everyone was joking, and suddenly the situation became so tense up, and i felt everyone was against me.

yeah thanks for making it happened because the china trip is coming. i slammed the glass door which shocked everyone in the canteen. fortunately i did not got into any fights.

(after a few hours of sleep......)

looking at the incident above, i am just damn childish.

somehow, i have a feeling someone wants to see this happen within the class.

call me judgmental or sensitive, but if anyone tries to wreck the bond between me and my friends. you have a little harder.

push me abit more, and i might break your face in china. trust me.

the first to present, the first to impress, and the first to leave a lasting impression. i can't be arrogant though, God brought me through this entire week. i was guilty of not seeking Him during the lowest periods since this week and the past few days.

but i tell myself: "hang on spiderman, think of the bigger picture that God has planned for the upcoming road ahead. "

i will be starting to post my thoughts and recordings in wordpress. kinda addicted to it though.

i shall reward myself with more sleeping hours before starting on the next revision for the final test this friday, yeah damn pathetic. :(

time really flies, in a blink of an eye, 6 months have passed... life in the working society will be another difficult journey. oh well i shan't be too far-fetched.

come on! nicholas! you have to persevere and be humble.

17.08.09

i am still exploring wordpress so forgive me if you find this blog abit dull. anyway i just want to comment that i have finally finished my final report on the industrial attachment programme. my sister neo is still in the midst of 'chiong-ing' hers, oh well guess our dinner date would have to be postponed again.

one thing i like about wordpress is the way they format the writing style, also at the same time it brings out this adrenaline rush within me to want to post something here. maybe i am new to this environment, after being with blogger for so many years. looking back, i have written about 572 posts on my life biography.

someday when i have kids, i want to compile everything into an autobiography for them, so that they may know more about me through reading it. it's hard sometimes for parents nowadays to show love on their kids, maybe that's the reason why my brothers are causing a mess in the family, sometimes even worse than the typhoon in taiwan.

being in singapore is such a blessed thing, even though there were slight tremors due to the earthquake that hit sumatra, we stood strong.

i am blessed that i have my limbs and health, i am blessed that everything is provided, i am blessed that my weekly allowance is more than others. i shouldn't see the reason to complain, but it often happens. i must never take all these for granted. maybe i should remind those around me to cherish what they now and be contented, not be blinded by temptations around them. seriously, temptation is a very powerful tool that can turn the life of a man 360 degrees, and once you are hooked with it, its hard to get out. i wish i could get out of mine, and hopefully cover that dark pit with something so that i may never walk into it again.

if you are faced with temptations, how do you overcome it? well prayers are one effective way, the other method... i strongly discourage it - "walking into it to overcome temptation". that is bullshit, walking into it doesn't solve the problem, in fact you will become the problem.

damn random with my thoughts, i need to stop and start on my presentation slides.

till then,peace out

15.08.09

okay i am going to chengdu for an immersion programme, and china happened to ban blogger. so here i am using wordpress for the very first time.

i have managed to find my way through here, thank God.

recently this week has been a blow to me, i need to talk to someone i know closely. i realize friends aren't really the solutions. Calvin told me that as time goes by, friends are people whom you depend on, but the dependency level isn't that strong. looking at my situation now, i have no choice but to agree to his words.

now, i am on my own.

many times people tell me to pray and seek God, the truth is, i don't. many times i tried to cry and release all my emotions, and it failed.

Calvin once told me to give a serious consideration on choosing the right path in life, religion is some sort of a self-assurance when you are down on the bottom rocks. but what exactly is the right path? even if i chose the right one, will it be an easy one for me?

i want to experience God and listen to Him whisper to my ears, but somehow it doesn't seem to happen. my life right now after the attachment is advancing like a bullet train.

yes i want to see a change in my life, a good one. not a life being destroyed or ruined by my own hands.

i am really hanging on, and any moment if i let go, it's the end of everything.

that evil tooth of mine

dentist: hi! is this your first time here?
noobthenick: yeah, name's nicholas but you can call me tonight :)
dentist: okay fill up this form and we'll attend to your problems.
noobthenick: sure

(AHHHHHHHHHHHH...)

dentist: just abit more and here we go, okay thank you and hope to see you again. =D

that lady dentist really melted my heart while my teeth was being treated by her. being mesmerized by her, i told myself there would be a next time. so i proceeded to the cashier, and to my horror...

cashier: mr. nicholas, your total bill for today = $250.
noobthenick: (*super stunned look, looks at pocket and knives stabbing into his heart)
cashier: hope to see you again arh!
noobthenick: yeah, hopefully.

should have known i would have become a dentist instead of being a aerospace engineer.

sian...

mom and dad would also be shocked, some more i have not get my overseas allowances from him! oh oh, not a word of complaint. *lun...

parental guidance

friend: "i will always be there for you."
noobthenick: "sure?"
friend: "absolutely."

(some random stuff happened...)

noobthenick: "hey thought you were supposed to be a friend, to be there for me..."
friend: "sorry, had something to attend."


it's true that a friend would stand by your side in times of troubles, but not always. even i am also guilty of that.

i could still remember a few years back when i got caught for stealing a pathetic chocolate bar at the supermarket, with my dud friend joash ong. no one showed up to bail the both of us out, except our parents.

another incident that happened was during a detention in school, i argued the vice-principal and broke down badly in the office. eventually my parents were the ones who had to clear up the mess.

third incident was during the molestation case that happened when i was in secondary two, who came to see the discipline master? my parents.

in times of financial difficulties, who provided the funds for me to go overseas and living expenses? obviously my parents.


thousands of illustrations to describe how great and sacrificial our parents are, and yet nowadays we take them for granted. from an infant till the way i look now, they had neither uttered a single word of complaint nor regret about giving birth to us. not only do we not appreciate their love for us, our expectations from them grew even higher according to the living standards in the society.

we complain about not getting enough allowances from our parents, we complain about not getting the extra incentives other children are getting nowadays, we complain about this and that. sometimes i feel like throwing all these rotten kids into those third world countries and let them have a taste of the life there.

that's it, i had enough. whatever allowance my dad or mom is giving me for the china trip, i am going to accept it without a word of complaint.

i don't understand why i am ranting my thought here, but i believe that we should really cherish our parents now while we can. i really cherished the time with mom during the buffet dinner just now. we had a ride on the mercedes limo cab down to hotel rendevous and savoured all the seafood and cold dishes.

super ex to the max. it was actually a treat before i leave for china, and i really appreciated it and cherished that period of time during dinner.

thank you mom. thank you Lord for the preparation you have made for the both of us. :)

"when a friend tells you he/she will always be there for you, think again..."
noobthenick

the week before the chendol trip

the 10km nike human race marathon is out now! i can't seem to navigate the way to the registration website. can anyone help?

i want to go for a movie treat now! is anyone interested?

the week ahead would be a very busy one for me, and i am still slacking at home. i know i have a lot of planning to do now, but there's no motivation to push myself ahead.

i would miss everyone in singapore once i am in chendol. to make an appointment with me, please text me one day earlier to prevent any clash in the schedules. hahaha!

i really have no mood to blog. till then.

post cabin crew training pictures

do you have the Nicholas inside you?

readers please hook me up on wordpress. the url is www.noobthenick.wordpress.com.

deadliest disease

"thursday marked the end of my attachment at tiger airways. it was an honour to meet Mr. Calvin Tan, who became a mentor and friend to me. although there weren't any farewell celebration, i knew i would be running alongside with him for the full marathon come december the 6th.

i've been appointed the student leader for the chengdu trip, and assigned to organize a cultural night programme during the lantern festival. the question is, am i happy about it? or is it the final report that is making me very impatient over several matters that i am beginning to fall back into my old self.

fmc, that is the abbreviation that i will be implementing from now onwards. up to you guys to comment or whatsoever. seriously, the end of the attachment should come with a celebration. there was one though, and some of us were not invited along, cause it requires a license. hilarious. eventually the remaining decepticons were chilling out at makan place. how am i going to china with a heart of expectancy and anticipation? those times in year two were the greatest of all, those good old times. if i had a choice right now, i would head for innova with my current o level grades.

home should be a peaceful place, and often i hear screams and cries of complaints. sometimes it feels like pearl harbour, fuck it. i don't think i can ever make it even before i reach NS. might as well go china and fuck around, out of this place once and for all.

i just hate the month of august. FML & FMC."

why am i like that? in good times, i praise God. in bad times, i run away from Him.

i have been diagnose with this disease, and only One can heal it. no doctors in this world have the cure for it. sin is the deadliest disease that all men have it.

if u can conquer your own heart, you will definitely conquer the world. but can you?

help me please?

the piece of paper

a company testimonial from my supervisor, after 6 months of the internship programme.

let us do a comparison between two reports, report A and report B.

report A is beautifully done, it has fulfilled whatever sections on the report format, but there is no sign of any company testimonial found in the report.

report B however, lacks of quality and content, and the thickness of the whole report is not as impressive as report A. but report B possesses that piece of paper that report A doesn't have. and that piece of paper, is the company testimonial.

who do you think will score a better grade?

the answer is none. why?

i will be the one scoring the better grade among these two reports. i have the quality, and i have the testimonial in my hands. all i have left now, is to finish up the report and get ready for the final presentation.

phew~ just received news that lean manufacturing project have been screwed up, looks like another day for completing the report is wasted...

no worries no worries

two more days to the end of my attachment, i have not finish my final report yet. deadline is this friday, i have no one to blame but myself for being lazy and procrastinating. 'no worries' is my current motto to keep me going through this week, the dark moments are finally here.

help me.

perseverance, determination, wisdom and knowledge, i need all these to spur me on.
i've missed out on soccer because of my stupid lack of discipline to complete my report, now i have to pay the consequences by burning more midnight oil, and it isn't really helping me abit at all.

help me.

final presentation is next week, professional preparation programme, preparations for china trip, all these i have not done...

help me.

blessed birthday singapore

being ranked the top 10th most expensive city in the world, singapore finally turns 44 years old.

on the 8th august of saturday, many things happened:

1. math tuition programme
2. personality test programme
3. slacking with heartbeatz
4. shopping with wei qian
5. billy's birthday celebration dinner
6. trip to geylang and east coast park
7. home sweet home.

i don't see myself making any effort to finish up on my final report. how to stand up for singapore?

this year's national day would be rather special, at the time of 8.22pm, everyone would stand together as one and say the pledge. i am excited about today's programme, hopefully there would be another gathering to catch the fireworks!

once again a blessed birthday to singapore.

P.S: i still have that smelly beancurd taste in my mouth.

romantic love v.s love?

wei qian probed me on a question during the journey to campus: 'what's the difference between romantic love and love?'

definition of love
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Love

definition of romantic love
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Romance_(love)

in my opinion, romantic love is expressed between both man and woman, an in-depth type of love as compared to love itself. love takes on many forms, such as parental love, friendship love, or even materialistic love. love can be expressed in different feelings, states and actions.

love is a very powerful tool. without it, the world would be in chaos, outbreak of wars, racial discrimination among people and violence would be inevitable. love connects people around us, and naturally relationships with people will become stronger.

i am going to china with my classmates, and i have a gut feeling bad things will come and destroy the bonding among everyone. politics will rise, betrayals among friends, competent attitudes over grades, all these and more will definitely come. i need a solution before that day comes.

this month would be a very dark month for me. it could be probably be one of the darkest period of the year. i really need the power of God's love, to prevent all this nonsense from happening.

Lord, help me to love others just as You have shown Your love and grace onto us. Grant me a heart of mercy, so that I can forgive these people just as You have forgiven my sins. It is by Your perfect and beautiful love, that all these things can be put to a stop. And Lord I pray, to take away my mistakes, and destroy them. So that I will not ponder on these things, and continue to walk with You and serve You through the works which you have prepared along the walk with You.

Thank you Lord Jesus Christ. Amen Amen.

i have to relax my nerves, if not i would experience rashes outbreak.

Simple Faith

simple faith is hope that cannot be seen with a naked eye. outside in the working society or the real world, we often think too much about our faith, sometimes to the extend until our faith becomes doubt. people who have simple faith are those whom the Lord blesses and reward them secretly. i ask myself: "do i have simple faith?"

when uncle boon ann shared about simple faith and being hungry and desperate to pray. i am ashamed of myself for not being a faithful person towards God. sometimes i feel like a pharisee, like the older brother mentioned in the book of luke. i am glad the prayer meeting made me felt connected to God once again. working life is a form of testing of my simple faith. yet again, i failed to discipline myself in some aspects of my life.

i must pray more and yearn for that simple faith and love from God. i want to be the older brother who is willinh to deny himself and become his own servant. i want to stop procrastinating and act now.

though i know i will start off well, but can i end well too?

Loo-ney Tunes.

a blessed happy birthday to billy loo who has turned 19th today!

one week left... the final countdown... you can do it noobthenick.

God has spoke to me on 'our daily bread' page via facebook!

“If My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land” (2 Chronicles. 7:14).

1. i have signed up for standard chartered full marathon - 42.195km.

- i am quite interested at the number 42.195 km, why not 42.00 or 42.2km? can anyone provide an explanation?

2. billy's birthday celebration

- chiong and have fun!

3. as usual, work

- no comments

4. chengdu trip.

2 corinthians 4:13-18

Dear Lord,

Thank you Lord for Monday and the well spent time with the people at work, help me to face my fears and struggles and weaknesses oh Lord. I pray that You will come and touch my heart, and take away all these burdens and sins away and destroy them for Your sake. I pray that whatever I do, these words, thoughts and actions that come out from within my heart shall be pleasing to You and Your kingdom.

Help me Lord, take all my mistakes away and destroy them. Guide me to the road of servanthood.

Amen

A farewell to the month of July

one two three, four five six, seven... the eighth is coming all the way to the twelfth.

i came across this note yesterday on 'what if your ex said', and there was an adrenaline rush prompting me to attempt that note. i was bombarded by a series of questions and how i would respond to those following questions. some answers were jokes obviously, some were not and in total it took me about 30 minutes to complete that piece of heartbreaking note.

a time machine is the definitely the best solution that everyone could imagine, bringing me back to salvage my wreck relationship two years back. if possible i want to travel even further back to those times in the New Testament, and really open up my eyes to see that period when Jesus Christ walked the earth.

i am definitely confused, i thought i had move on with life and everything seemed normal for me. yet at times, when i see stuffs or travel to places that i have been with her, the memories just come back. but the problem is two years had already passed, so why am i still pondering over such things?

there are so many things in life i want to achieve, and deadlines to meet. but surely there should be a balance between personal stuffs and love? my boss shared with me his experiences when he was young like me, and reminded me not to take life seriously, just get out there and enjoy while my youth is still present. because when the older one gets, the level of regret escalates even higher.

i can't seem to convey a message in this post, i am way out of point of writing this. i want to find back that fire for a relationship, and yet i hesitate. i am afraid of this and that, assignments, deadlines, rejections and embarrassment. even if i find that girl, i can't initiate any special feelings like i did previously. is my expectations too high, or am i just plain pathetic?

august is coming, and i am not definitely not excited about it.

Just another day...

the moment my feet touches the ball, magic just comes to life. dazzling moves and superb goals, that's what all football players dream to achieve. i am starting to feel more comfortable with my dribbling, however the defence has been declining ever since i took the attacking role in the game. in the past, i love playing at the back, it requires lesser stamina and all you have to do is steer the ball away from my own goal post. if i had a chance to choose between fame and fortune, i rather be in the limelight because it's in my blood.

i am an adaptive player who can almost connect with any player within the team, one particular problem in the past about me is i am not fond of listening to commands from team mates. being arrogant in nature, it's difficult to get these commands into my head. however, the good news is i am willing to listen now.

i love to create chances for my team mates to score, that feeling is much better than scoring. i wonder if there are readers who belong to this group, but in a team, you can't expect everyone to be like that, no one will eventually score.

second problem is the fear of losing. players around me would definitely agree with me, i tend to make negative remarks when the team loses and worst still, crude words coming out from my mouth. having the quote of "your response could be better" seems effective in helping one to cultivate his mood better when in the soccer court.

the reason i am writing this football topic - this sunday's match. another upcoming church game, though i know i will screw up again like last time, there's one thing i know the entire team will never miss, which is the supporters. i think without them we wouldn't have that particular driving adrenaline rush to play to our best. i wonder what it feels like playing in a stadium filled with tens of thousands over fans cheering for you?

you score, they celebrate. you make one mistake, they condemn you till you're dead.

peace out.


P.S: 2 more weeks left to the end of attachment.

Sea Sunday

i was punctual for church service, and it was perfect. today is also known as sea sunday, a day to be remembered for the 1.2 million seafarers all around the world. it was a great service, when the speaker shared with us about the lives of these seafarers', and it is such a blessed thing to be at home with my family and friends. to be out at the sea for months is not a pleasant thing at all, we can't predict when the storms would come, or the waves would rage upon the ships. but no matter whether we are high above the skies or down below the seas, God is with us. Amen.

i received a reprimanding message from my supervisor this afternoon. it seems like whatever i do, i just can't get things done the way they are. as the attachment is coming to its end, i really hope to get back to school like the old times. i can't imagine what my life would be if i were to start working full time, like adelene or elaine. maybe i might attend the j.u.m.p talk session to see how i can maintain my biblical roots while staying focused in the fast-moving society.

in the past, whatever mistakes that we committed, we are still kids after all. but turning from 18 to 19 doesn't makes us kid any longer. more responsibilities and burdens come as we grow older, friends come and go in our lives, i am so glad i have some who are still stuck with me, and i really cannot take them for granted. sometimes it sucks being an adult, you have to be the role example for the younger ones, become the mr. know-everything to prevent yourself from losing out to others. imagine if i start serving the country, wonder what kind of person i will be. still the same? only God knows.

the attachment period made me reflected throughout all this while, and i felt that i have really grown mature among my fellow classmates. not being boastful or what, but it seems every week when i go back for lessons, they are still stuck in their own fantasy world. come on, it has been 2 years plus of schooling inclusive of the internship, surely there would be some slight changes in their lives? maybe there are, or maybe i am just being too judgmental of them.

i have my own set of flaws and weaknesses, and i am willing to change them, through the help of my friends and God. and i am thankful of who i am today, because of them.

yesterday i was standing in front of a big crowd organizing icebreakers, it is really nerve-wrecking for me. sometimes i love acting and crapping in front of my friends, because i feel comfortable. but once i am out of that zone, everything starts to feel different. in life, not everything is about me, in the end everything still boils down to servant hood. yes i love being in the lime light, but maybe the role of game master would open my eyes and heart to even greater things.

if i could put pure smiles, joy and laughter from these people's hearts, then i would have achieved the meaning of being a game servant. of course, i need more committed people to help me along the way, cause it's not about me alone, it's about the team! :)

phew... finally got everything out from my chest. that felt better

peace out!

Spiritual gifts that I possess

it was a good well-spent saturday with the loccw people in the house of God, especially when it's the official day of our personality test, and the attendance was great, though it could be even better. there was only one point we must really emphasize, and that is time management. if punctuality was emphasized, then games session wouldn't be that long, allowing more time for the sharing session and everyone would head back home on time.

just abit of sidetracking, yao jun just posted my previous essay on facebook, gaining quite a few recognition from my fellow aerospace mates. it felt satisfying having to see so much positive comments and encouragement from them.

thank you arh hengtai. :)

so i was spending quite some time on attempting 184 questions for the first round of the spiritual personality test. you know, there are actually so many gifts and talents inside the bible, of course each of us possess some of them, but not all. God created each and everyone of us to be unique and special towards Him. not having all the gifts and talents allow us to need each other for support, be it in times of struggles or in team work. i thought about it and related this to the run we had yesterday - 7 runners, 1 race. and another food for thought would be our percussion team - different races, different cultures, 1 sound.

wow, i finally understood. we need each other, however we do need to remember to learn to guard our "strengths and uniqueness" while relating to people.

okay after the series of questions, here are the spiritual gifts that i possess:

*1. Encourager
2. Showing mercy
3. Teaching

*Starting from the highest.

point number 2 was seriously out of the point, but then again, i know God has His reasons for granting this gift to me. maybe i have too much hatred inside me that i couldn't express this gift and multiplying it to others. the rest of the points were definitely accurate. i like encouraging people and enjoy teaching. but whether it is both the good or bad, depends on what the learners feel about me.

now that i know i possess these spiritual gifts, i am going to learn to apply in my life with people and with God. it's really difficult given the situation in my family and in class where there are lots of politics. i do need to open up my heart and listen to people rather than to jump to conclusions and judge people.

next week would be another great one, and hopefully jin wan and marcus will come back to cell group in the pink of health and free of injuries. :)

till then, peace out. tomorrow there's church service!

Glory for the Aerospace Technology!

yesterday for the first time in history, both the school of engineering and the aerospace technology bagged down 2 golds in the runner's relay 2009.

7 runners, 1 ultimate race.

Glory to Aerospace Technology!

Team members: Norman Leow, Subaa (Year 1), Teng Yao Jun, Nicholas Ng, Poh Yi Cheng, Camille Harris, Alvin Tan.

2 aerospace teams signed up for race, leaving one team to put their names in history. both teams showed their passion and the attitude in running, and a time of a mini team bonding session too. especially when our team mates ran on the track, we would be beside them cheering and spurring them on. this team spirit which we had yesterday could never possibly be found in lectures or tutorial sessions. it was one of the best or maybe the best friday we could ever had. not forgetting those who never ran but stayed to support the teams, we dedicated this honor and glory to you guys too.

sadly both teams had been inflicted with sickness and injuries, but yet it's their heart of willingness that me wanted to give it all out in running this race. take for example my pal zhi yuan, he did not had lunch, and he ran the 1.2km route without hesitating. after completing the race, he sat without moving and became very weak. everyone was there to show care and concern for him, there was one girl in the other team who was sick, and yet she ran. it's really amazing how these people showed their faith and that fiery passion for running.

taking this moment, both teams would like to thank nicholas keith tam for doing all the backstage work, especially all the admistrative and contacting of people to join the team. there were time when clowns would be try to be funny with you, but at least we got back the cup for our course. and without all your work, i don't think anyone of us would take the initiative to sign up for the relay.

thank you...

to those that backed out from the team, i sincerely thank you because it's your lack of faith and full of lame excuses that led those who have it join the team. it's okay that you don't run, we won't despise you, just continue to live your life that way. once again, a big thank you to you.

today would be the first time that i would be taking the first personality test, the authentic one as compared to facebook. what type of personality will i possess???

P.S: liverpool are in singapore already! catch tomorrow's match live 7.00pm only on channel 5.

Taking it for granted

sitting in front of my laptop, thoughts began running through my mind. looking back the mission trip i went, it's as if it was just yesterday, and i have returned back to singapore not long ago. after the attachment with tiger airways, i would be embarking on a journey to another province in china, a study trip with all my classmates to chengdu. i hope to use this opportunity to get out of town with full of distractions surrounding me, i really need to take a breather and refreshen myself during the 6 weeks period.

i just watched an episode of 'stars changing hearts' on channel u. the artiste mindee ong travelled to some random mountainside area in china to provide voluntarily work, to simplify it, it was a sort of mission trip which lasts for about a week there. there were many different tribes of the different languages, mindee went to the 'baoyu' tribe area where she laid her focus on a population mostly made up of elderly and abandoned children. fortunately the people there were all people of God, they have a church there too! this programme brought me back many memories and some reflecting points while i was in china last year doing my first ever serious missionary work.

i felt quite disappointed with myself, ever since i came back and all the way till now, i am back in my old self, taking whatever i have in possession for granted. looking at those children who have lost their parents at such a young age, i wonder why my 2nd brother would behave in this manner, showing disrespect and worst still, cursing my mother right in front of her face. yes we humans have feelings, it's fine that we feel frustrated at times, but not to the extent that we let our feelings take control of our mind and words. it is not the outside that makes a man sin, it is what comes out from our heart that makes him/her sin.

i am living in a society full of temptations and different types of people. everyday i see people getting what they've always wanted, doing what they liked without a heck in the world, but they only realize their regrets after something disastrous takes place. why is it that when things happened, people realize their mistakes? why can't they just take precautions and prevent it? the question is why?

i hope the upcoming china trip would be a series of different tests for different people. for me, it would be a test of patience, faith, love and trust. it's mushy i know, but all these i have been lacking ever since at the beginning of attachment...

peace out

This week the trend

i thought my boss was demanding enough, my boss's superior was even awesome! on monday and tuesday i had to work overtime because of the task he had assigned me with, and i wanted to break down just like that, because he did not offer any guidance at all. his objective is very simple, get the job done and that's it, if there are changes to be made he will request upon seeing the final results. in total i had 4 attempts on this task, and i survived it. adelene wanted to help me, but she has enough worries from her workload, no point trying to suffocate her any further.

i really suck at excel, but on the other hand, it's really satisfying to produce something i had never done before on this software. credits to God, without Him during the two days i guess i might just go back to berserk mode.

today i reach the office at 10 plus in the morning, and in private sectors, people wouldn't probe you too much on why you are late. as long as you have done your work, whatever time you want to go home, it's really up to you. after yesterday night supper with wei qian, i felt so much better, i even did some minor household chores before leaving for work. (that explains why i was late for work)

i have not been updating myself in the football world, in the past i would get first hand information on the club transfers around the world! right now, i am losing the passion for such interest in these kind of news. however, it doesn't mean i will stop playing football!

i should start equipping myself with more creative ideas on games and reading more news around the globe to keep myself aware of what's going on. being cooped in the office for the entire 5 days isn't really fun at all. there isn't much thoughts to blog about, especially during this period of the year. well apart from my 'being late for church service', there's one more coming up, the personality test which would be starting this saturday. i am looking forward to it! and organizing games for an estimated number of 40 isn't relaxing, its a new challenge for both me and jin wan.

i hope this weekend would be an awesome one. cheers.

my 2nd brother is getting from bad to worst. let me give you an brief account of what happened few hours ago. he wore my levi's button tee to school for a presentation, i wasn't unhappy about that, because i wore his tee to work. so here's the best part: he came back home and when i running some minor checks through the shirt, i spotted several missing buttons on the sleeves. when being asked, my brother denied immediately that he wasn't the culprit.

so the question is: who did it?

it was obviously him! and he made a big hoo ha out of it, my mom was angry at his reaction and the entire family went haywire again. it may seemed that i was the starter of all things. given my brother's pattern, if i did not check the tee now, in the future i wouldn't have anymore evidence against him. indeed i am trying to learn to share clothes with him, but there must be a responsibility to care for my tee, like how i cared for his.

i wanted him to be dead. but how?

wei qian drove me out for supper at random places, and i appreciated it a lot, even though i had work later for the day. shared many personal feelings on family matters, and met ya ting along the journey too.

anyway, i don't wish to talk much regarding this matter. working overtime for 2 days has already taken half of my life away. i need to regain my posture and stamina back.

i need to be sick now!

i am being super random now, don't feel like working tomorrow. help me please

i am currently resting after watching the first half of harry potter and the goblet of fire. its been a week of harry potter madness! yesterday caught the chapter on the half blood prince at marina square, followed by channel 5's prisoner of azkaban.

participated in the singapore heritage trail race, with marcus, stella and sharlene. well we did not win anything, but i am proud to walk a distance of more than 5km! good job guys. too bad my knee injury affected my walking, if not i will run throughout the entire race.

today i was late for church service again, this time by a margin of 10 mins. no excuses for me, i need to wake up my idea. took jumpshots for youth camp advertisment this year, hahaha.

less than a month before attachment ends...

fuck fuck fuck. fuck everything.

we are halfway through the year 2009, looking back at the times in school with my classmates were simply the best. i still remember how we struggled together with this engineering design module, and my partner trey and i argued over our project due to personal reasons. indeed those were the times when we stuck together like glue and this bond was significantly strong. yes it was obvious that some of us stuck together to gain academic benefits, but i don't mind, at least we could chill together and leave some good old memories behind...

tomorrow's the big day for the registration of the standard chartered marathon! i have thought seriously, and will be attempting for my first 42.195km. also, obtaining the finisher tee would be my best birthday gift ever. in this race, its not about me running alone, its about running with God. and when all things fail, God never fails.

i have just finished screwing the proposal upside down. damn tired and shag, just wished i could just close my eyes and let tomorrow come.

alright then people, peace out.

i am aiming for my first finisher tee for the standard chartered marathon on 6th december, and yes it will be the full marathon that i am attempting this year. it was a sudden decision, because i was initially thinking of going for the 21km, but i knew i would'nt be satisified with myself, thus the decision made to conquer this new challenge. yes it's a little ambitious of me after the 10km run for the nike human race, but winning the finisher tee would act as a gift before my 19th birthday.

another week left before the final report is to be endorsed, i am feeling very lazy again, especially i have no work for today. sometimes i love it, sometime i do not. imagine you have to be on guard when you surf the net during office hours, and i am expose to an open area where my colleagues can actually see what i am doing. heng there was no one to sabotage me, or you can see me washing air planes at my aerospace hub. i have course mates whom are already kicked out from their attachments. it is disappointing when your lecturer has to undergo so many trouble to provide a place for us in various airline companies and yet countless of times we screw things up.

swine flu is a very common thing among people in our land, to me it is like a cool thing. getting the virus allows you to have this a lot of benefits, such as being absent from work, doctors and nurses will take great care of you. its up to you to decide whether it can be good or bad, to me i think it's good thing to get the swine. but of course you will be a burden to your entire family, and to the people around you. that's why the need for responsibility is so important, being negligence about the virus could actually lead to unthinkable consequences.

alright i am tired, i need to catch a break. see you people.

saturday was awesome to the max! especially when Heartbeatz gather together as one for the dragon boat competition. we realize we needed more team bonding after obtaining second place for the race, but i am glad that we all had fun! one particular stupid thing i did was bathing inside the toilet, using the basin to wash my face and hair, and the hose for my body. i got caught by someone shouting from the outside about wasting water and wetting the entire place. i can't help it, being clean is me. imagine the whole day of dragon boating and sweating, not bathing could grow fungus around parts of my body man!

stayed out till midnight where wei qian took us out for a ride to geylang for supper with kok chye and billy. it's been a long time since we chilled like that, everyone were busy with their own lives, so i appreciated that night with them, except for the part i knocked out straight in his van while on the way home. expect more outings like that to come! and pictures would start coming in soon!

sunday was another part 2, and it was lan time! collected my heritage race kit with marcus and eugene. unexpected things popped along the way, and finally we got our hands on the mouse! i played killing floor, the latest lan game which was awesome to the max! 6 people getting together to survive among mutants and bosses. for me personally i think its a great game, cause its tactical and you need to think instead of firing those bullets away. effects weren't as great as L4D, but not having the crosshair makes the game even realistic, it trains your accuracy.

flight simulator training was great! heard from yao jun that some classmates actually missed me while i was away. don't worry i will be back this friday! spent 5 hours inside the simulator, and the total cost was around US$4000! luckily it wasn't from my pockets, and i gotta thank my supervisor for the arrangement. if i am not wrong i would be expecting one more to come, this time on a real trip to padang in malaysia!!!

we cherish those only when they aren't here with us, dear michael, your songs have brought joy and change to the entire world. rest in peace my brother, now the world will leave you alone in peace...

a phrase in this song struck me real hard: "smile though your heart is aching.".

in my life, i took my friends, my family, the ones i loved for granted. it is only when i lose them, i start to reminisce the times when we were together. i often told myself, if i had a time machine, i would make sure everything would be in the right place at the right time. God takes control of our lives, who are we to determine our fate? we cannot even predict when the color of our hair would turn white, God is in control of it. who are we to judge people when we ourselves are imperfect?

i was very touched by the speech from paris jackson at the memorial concert for mj last night, just when the world thought they needed him back, God needed him even more. everything happens for a reason, rest in peace mj.

till now, i have the habit of criticizing people, and judging them for their flaws. when i look at myself and reflected, actually i am just like one of them. i am looking at my reflection through this people, at least i know about it.

characteristics and personalities of people often change, due to their problems in life. some change because they seek self-identity, some change because they want to feel self-assured, some change to blend into the group so that they will not feel outkast. at the end of day, their hearts are still filled with emptiness. some resort to violence, some resort to temporary fulfilment such as smoking, clubbing, fighting, or even prosituting. hey i remember mentioning this once, but somehow it just came across my mind again.

i want to lend people a listening ear. i picked this phrase from somewhere which i found very interesting: knowledge speaks, wisdom listens.

instead of providing solutions to people whom might not heed or listen, why not just spend time listening to their woes and troubles? it helps actually, i have a lot of friends who loved sharing problems with me. rather than giving them solutions, i try to create jokes, or munch power pack snacks with them, and spend time with them. this is a much better idea right? you should try it sometime...

flight simulator's training tomorrow. wish me luck.

after the internship with tiger airways i thought i could bring in more aerospace students for the next semester. apparently this idea of mine failed terribly, when my supervisor told me that he would not be taking in any more interns already, as of now. reflecting on this issue, i am the cause of this. i admit that the past few months i was slack and being a laze in the office, and not delivering work which is up to my supervisor's expectations. right now, lecturers in my course would start to change their impression on me.

my supervisor's point of view was that since he has been posted to the finance department, there was no point bringing in more engineering interns to do finance tasks since it was new to their working field. if he were still in the engineering sector, he might bring them in. the second reason was that tiger airways are currently trying to cut costs, and using an illustration of using the $400 to pay for the water supply was much more worth it. i am not sure whether this was an insult, but i was totally disappointed. too bad, i am not a good worker, what's the point of being a top student in ngee ann when i can't impress the company...

i apologize for this boring post, but i just don't know who to talk to, except God.

another month to go, nicholas you can do it. give it all you have. :)

Black eye bags

monday was Alan's farewell dinner before he prepares himself for the first two weeks
of serving the country. dear brother Kok Chye has indeed lost around 4 kilograms
after about 4 weeks of physical training at pulau tekong. another brother going away,
how i wished i could also serve the army right now, beats better than working in the
office. one of my colleague told me that i should appreciate the environment i am
working in, because often i do not get opportunities like this to work under a good
supervisor, so i should cherish it while i can because in the future i might not get a
chance like that anymore.

so what happened yesterday? after dinner, the guys proceeded ahead with their plans
while i went along with the rest of the ladies. shan't mentioned the rest of the part
lest some of the younger ones might come here and read about the second half of the
night. to sum it all, we had a great time for the farewell dinner. especially during the
phototaking session and praying as a whole for Alan. Stella's appearance was a surprise
for some of us, but i was glad, because i have not seen her for a very long time.

football later in the evening, i have finally recovered from all those injuries, and thank God
for His blessings and protection. the first step to obtain fruitfulness is to start by being
punctual for church service, cell group gatherings and lessons in school, and lastly for
work. all this i am doing is not for my own sake, but for God alone.

if i do my part and give my everything in whatever i do, i believe that God will reward me in terms of
grades and other alternate blessings. but i know i would not be that heng all the time,
often i will face rejections, but this also shows my test of faith. if things goes to well,
i would be led back to that previous self. i want experience change and healing in my
present life. and it starts by being punctual...

i can't imagine i am actually sitting awake and doing my ISO project in the early midst of the morning. such a good time for sleep, okay yao jun is reading this blog too, i better get going with the case study. but before that, let me just go random for awhile.

you know, my dad is great and understanding. though he doesn't know how to show his love, he actually does cares for us. he lend me a huge amount of dang to pay up for my china trip first, if not my application would be terminated from the list. i will definitely pay him after PSEA has issued the reimbursement claims back.

secondly, around 6 plus in the morning, my second brother as usual made the entire house tremble with his non-stop blowing and sneezing of his nose (it has been part of his life since young), and sounds of the Niagara falls in the toilet. my mom and dad has to play a part in seriously reminding him that my 3rd brother has school, and he's late because of his 45 minutes bathing session.

so here comes the scary part, i had this dream, or a nightmare if you called it. but before i had this dream, i was very frustrated with my 2nd brother while lying on the bed. i didn't want to shout or find trouble, i kept it inside my heart, lots of frustration inside. then here comes the nightmare:

Nightmare

i was driving a evolution 9 on the highway back home, automatic transmission of course, and suddenly a horde of racing cars just surrounded me. i entirely lost my front view in front, but fortunately not my life. okay, so i went around telling people that i drove and managed to survive that illegal race scare. marcus, billy, choy, my two brothers were somehow inside the scene, wei qian and i had a big quarrel over some issue which i have forgotten. the two of us walked away and from that moment onwards, we weren't friends or brothers anymore.

now the scary moment: marcus and choy had something on, and they left my house straight away informing me they will be back shortly. the door bell rang, an old lady stood right at the door, i opened the door and let her in, she told me she was in charge of taking care of my two brothers. so she continued with her business and managed to coax my two brother to bed! that was pretty amazing from that old woman, so i went to find a dvd to relax at the living room. while searching for the dvd, i dropped a disc and it showed a devil's picture feasting on human flesh, very gory indeed.

and i heard something, some sort of snorting and chewing, and i tip-toed past the hall and took a peek into the room. oh shit, that lady turned into that devil that was on the disc and eating the crap out of my brother! it was very gory la, and she turned to me and said : "once i am done with your 2nd brother, you are next."

i have never been so scared in my nightmares before, i quickly type an sms to marcus asking him to come home quickly, but my stupid samsung pda phone played a prank on me. i couldn't possibly stay inside the house, i ran out to take the lift down... * blackout. the lift door opened, and she stood right in front of me with those bloody razor sharp teeth and eyes. and...

i quickly open my eyes, got out from my bed, and here i am...

it was really frightening, especially when i saw my two brother being eaten with my own eyes. though i get pissed off with my brothers at times, but to die in this manner made me feel very guilty and disappointed. afterall they are my blood brothers, i should be more mature and think far, not just for my own sake.

Lord, help me on this...amen.

Bipolar disorder? Dear readers, I am fine actually, I just felt the need to vent out my anger through the power of blogging. Unless I have one of those punching bags that Ivan has, it was damn hilarious when he shot that video of his unorthodox fighting moves in his room with Cleon and Buddy. It was really inspirational to me, and there might be a chance that Wei Qian and I are going to do our own comedy video too, no worries the both of us are not doing anything obscene or wrong, just so you know.

As the day passes in Tiger Airways, I am learning to build passion in my working attitude so that I wouldn't complain about time being passing very slowly during office hours. You know what? Tiger Airways' managing director was on news today! It was very surprising when I switched channel and saw her being interviewed at Terminal 3. They should have interviewed an intern like me, I have much to share with them, especially the cabin crew training and the upcoming flight simulator training next Friday. Whoo hooo~

Project time!

Ever since I got back from church camp, things don't seem to go the right way. I tried going to the left, ended up even worser than ever. My mind is filled so many disturbing issues, for example my attitude towards friends, work and even reading the bible. Sometimes I talked too much, thinking that using the right words could persuade people around me. In fact, I just talk, without executing... I am so glad I have some time to blog, despite all that workload in the office. Seriously, I have been so busy that I only have about 3 hours in the night before the scheduled sleeping time.

Last Saturday, I received an invitation from Edward to his sister's birthday party, alongside with some of my cell group members too. It was the first time savoring different cultural style buffet and of course, Edward's mom spaghetti and her coconut dessert. It was really good I must admit, kept going for quite a few rounds before the knockout phase came. In addition, it was also the first time that I really had a good talk with my cell group members, usually during Saturdays we would meet up for cell, and after that home sweet home. We really did not have any time for chit-chatting or even chill time. Guess it's hard to accommodate everyone, but Wei Qian and I were sure glad we did not miss the fun time.

I better cherish the life now before I get out into the working life, no wonder so many senior workers used to tell me : "Study hard now, or you will regret." I finally understand it now. I hope my 3rd younger brother would really heed this advice, sitting in front of the laptop and playing Dota would help you succeed in life.

As for my 2nd brother, it wouldn't hurt or die just to admit the faults that you have made. You burst the phone bill, you pay for it. I can't imagine how he has that skin to deny when the bill document arrived and amounted to about $60. In addition, every night he doesn't sleep, he just sits in front of the bloody laptop and spends all the electricity away. There was this incident where he did not slept at all, made hell lotsa noise in the room before rushing out to meet his girlfriend and visit his sickly friend at the hospital. HOSPITAL! He doesn't realize the fact that my dad and mom has to work, what happens if he passes that swine flu to them?

He wants to get sick and get warded in the bed, then the whole world would come and visit him and feel sad for him. Trust me on this, there were many attempts before. My mom and dad almost fainted because of his selfish and childish attitude. Damn pissed off now.

Sometimes I wished I had the strength of Nicholas Keith, and just give one death blow. And then I will just submit myself to the police. Case closed.

today was something different after church service. i went out with eileen, oilvia, kok chye and wei qian. chilled at town, places such as coffee club before ending our dinner at bedok. we had a feadt before the long winding journey home. it was a good time i must say, though the following day would be the same old monday blues.

this week would be an awkward week i should say. i have to pay church camp, and china trip fees. i dont know how to ask my dad for this huge amount of moola, really have to ask God for advice. and yeah i have not been praying, and my faith has been wavering over the slightest thing that occured recently.

my temper has recently turned quite bad too, due to some minor crap. seriously i need to change myself before trying to change others. oh in addition to love people of different kinds of crap.
Lord, help me on this...

I have worked hard this week, and time has passed so quickly that I don't even have time to revise for yesterday's paper. Received a lunch treat from a representative from Michelin who is interested in collaborating with my company, at Earl's Swensen! The salad bar was good, made me felt very refreshing before the main course came, which I ordered wrongly la - tenderloin steak. I almost fainted after struggling with it, and looked "sua-gu" when I attempted to cut the meat.

Coming back from church camp, I seriously don't feel anything at all. Yeah I did felt something during the camp, but coming back to Singapore, everything is back at top speed - working life, spending time with friends, reports and projects. All of these come rushing back straight to your face, how I wish my leg injury would just recover so I can focus on football fellowship with my brothers once again. Been missing football since ... ??? Just being random, Michael Jackson passed away yesterday.

What's next? Transformer 2! Interim final report! Case study project! China trip! All these involves time and money. I have to pay for the trip next Friday, the full amount of the trip - $1300. I need to think of something to pursuade my parents to pay for me. Right now, I still have not paid for the church camp, and feeling guilty about it.

So I was thinking, after 4 months of internship, have I learnt anything or become more mature in my attitude and speech? Does this attachment period actually helped to strengthen the ties between me and my classmates? NO. In fact, it became even worse. I just want to use the china trip as a ground once again, to bring all of us back to those times when we were in Yunan. Welcome back those good old days.

I have not been blogging properly recently, I am not sure about myself too. So many thoughts running through my mind, but its all irrelevant stuffs. What should I do? People around me are experiencing breakdown at this moment of their lives, I feel helpless. I want to pray but I lack the discipline. Everything is moving so fast, or is this one of those lame excuses to cover my butt?

guess what, i still have not paid for church camp yet. don't worry i will not run away from singapore, i will find temporary shelter at tanah merah aloha loyang chalet.

my leg has been getting from bad to worst, especially the injury on my knee, the moment i bend them it will bleed. i can't play soccer with all my kakis, period. i guess i need medical attention and a first aid box at home.

okay what the heck am i talking about? i should talk about the lunch treat at earl's swensen, changi airport terminal 3. i ordered this tenderloin steak, which is medium rare and almost puked after swallowing the entire chunk. tonight i will be having dessert at swensen's, causeway point. i am spoilt for too much good food, and not exercising at all makes me good, cause i am growing fatter and fatter. :)

hello! i am using my mobile to do my own blogging. i am not sure whether it can be seen here, but i hope i can use this in future to post via mobile.

anyway i have been missing from blogging and praying. so many things have been happening recently, and moving so fast that i can't stop time from going slow. i will be back to full time blogging soon...

hello! i am using my mobile to do my own blogging. i am not sure whether it can be seen here, but i hope i can use this in future to post via mobile.

anyway i have been missing from blogging and praying. so many things have been happening recently, and moving so fast that i can't stop time from going slow. i will be back to full time blogging soon...

"you are allowed to go for church camp!" - my supervisor...

since morning, i have been working and clearing off my assignments before i embarked on my next spiritual trip with God to port dickson@kuala lumpur. i want to thank God and all my friends who have been keeping me in their prayers, it really worked. i also want to thank the personnel who approved my leave for the church camp, and i am still being paid for taking leave. ai ling told me to tell the truth rather than lying, well the truth does hurts, but what i have received is even greater and it overcame the hurt and anxiety!

now the next step is to start raising funds for the my expenses for the church camp. to be honest, i have spent quite a bomb on clothes and accessories. lacking the discipline to save once again...

its saturday morning, i went to catch the preview of "taking of peltham 123". i must say the movie's awesome. credits to those who suggested this movie - billy, sharity and wei qian. fortunately my objection against that horror movie worked. :)

no news means good news. i hope i will start working on my project seriously, and that means even more self discipline. please let me go for church camp... i will pay back by working on fridays. even if it means working on the weekends too, to show my sincerity.

alright good morning singapore! im heading to bed now.

seems the new change in my blog url has send confusion to many readers. i apologize for the sudden change, and i hope you will be able to find your way back here again through the help of msn or emails. i should be sending my url via to those whom i have your email addresses. to random readers, i am sorry but you would need more hard work in the navigation.

football session yesterday at tekong was disappointing, especially after being away for two weeks without wearing my soccer gear. i felt that there simply wasn't any communication at all, and i can't blame the team too. i need to get back on my feet and start communicating. or maybe the reason wasn't the communication, it could be something else... i can't afford to fall in love right now, damn.

okay i have to prepare myself tomorrow if i want to go for church camp, i need advice and tips! it's either i make it, or break it. not being able to attend church camp would lead to billy's withdrawal from the camp too. i don't wish to be the source of this regret. people please pray hard for me, i will also work hard in my prayers, extra hard.

i have not been very discipline in my working assignments, i feel very disappointed in myself, especially when my boss has been treated me so good yet i took it for granted. i want to prove myself to him once again, and this final project might be the only chance to prove my ability. at least when i leave tiger airways i will have no regrets during this 6 months internship period.

ciaos. thank you lord.

while i was slacking at the terminal staff canteen, i came across a father and his two young daughters. looking at them made me feel so warmth, and its been sometime since i experienced this feeling at home. the father bought ban mian for his princesses, and the both of them were very picky in their veggies and the amount of soup and noodles. i was watching and listening to them, it was interesting yet warmth.

will i ever get to reminisce those old times with my family once again?

back to blogging after so many days of absence from here. to top it all, i have officially completed my cabin crew training! i am starting to miss all my classmates, especially all the jokes. i will be anticipating my first flight soon as an observer, hopefully. i managed to ace through the assessment drills and papers, but yao jun perfected them all...

yesterday during the test period, i had to re-do the writing of my answers 3 times! all because my instructor was unhappy with the way i drew my "x". i argued that this wasn't art & craft and it wasn't of high importance. then the argument went on and i took my paper and walked off, she also requested an apology from me after i have cooled down. little did i know that it was her last day of training with us today, yet i made it a very memorable one for her. well eventually i apologized, and even bought her a sandwich for her, how sweet can i be. to clear off our dispute, yao jun, candy, my instructor and i took our last interns-instructor picture before leaving.

father's day performance is this sunday, been practicing hard for it. let's hope something special will happen that day - ivan's appearance in church service.

this week is getting much slower compared to last week, many things to clear before the day of the church camp arrives. at least i won't have to worry so much when i'm overseas. so many stuffs, yet so little time. oh well, i need more time management lessons.

football session tonight! anyone?

great now comes the bad news, my lecturer forbid me to go for church camp... what am i supposed to do?

being busy keeps me focused on things that i need to accomplish by this week. so far so good, my interim report's done, i'm not sure of scoring though, let God take over my grading. watched monsters vs aliens with joyce and yao jun. damn hilarious, especially that blue chewing gum, nowadays animated movies are getting more and more creative, and it seemed so real. well my next movie would "terminator salvation". another blockbuster coming up too, transformer: revenge of the fallen. :)

i am a big fan of terminator, especially when arnold's the man for this role in his past 3 movies. now that he's mayor of some state in the U.S, let's hope bale will bring some impact out from this movie.
cabin crew training is coming to an end by this week, followed by a final paper next tuesday. i want to perfect the paper, not just pass it. yao jun said that we should start now, before it's too late. i might be teaming up with him for the iso project, so many things to complete before church camp.

Lord, stay with me and thank you once again for keeping me focused in this path of direction. amen

i was glad that saturday and sunday was among the best days spent in my life. another fresh start to a new journey with God, i must say. i was still cooped up with my interim report during weekends. today, my supervisor finally endorsed it, thank God. my lecturer also did his part by giving me a few days grace, if not i will never be able to complete this report. fortunately teaming up with him allowed this advantage, but no more soccer this week for me. my knee is hurting real bad! i guess being isn't really that fun after all.

it's a new month finally. lots of struggles during the past 2 months, and soon my bro kok chye will be serving the country. one bro down, two to go. guess the 888 team would just be wei qian, billy and me. we need more recruitments! time flies, and attachment would be ending soon in another 10 weeks? i am currently been attach to tiger airways' cabin crew training, and its been a very enriching programme for me. apart from the air stewardesses, i enjoyed the activities and the lunch sessions with my pal yao jun. sadly, this week would be the last one before the final paper held next tuesday.

another exciting week to come, hopefully this week would be a better one for some of us! my supervisor has been a great mentor to me for the first half of the attachment. his new post means that i will be facing new challenges ahead. yeah he got promoted and posted to the finance sector. i just hope my final report's quality would be twice as much better than my interim. seriously i just scraped through the entire report. my aim of a gpa score of 4, i can smell it...