Time is ticking, time~time~ is ticking...

When you are lazy, you are also being evil at the same time. Being lazy means not getting your work done, procrastinating all day long, and when the deadline comes, you tell yourself "tomorrow never dies!". Okay, I am being random after a long day away from home. One good news was lessons ended at 10am, and the bad news was that I had nothing much to do in school apart from all the deadlines I will be facing soon. Like I said, I was being pure lazy all day long, kinda wasted 8 hours of precious time and money on pool and Left4Dead.

Looking back at the time of my attachment period all the way to the time I was packing for my China trip, it was a total of six months. To those who had gone through the internship programme, what have you exactly gained from the experience? Putting your grades aside, have you ever learnt something from all that ups and downs? Or its just one of those working experiences you had and clean forgotten about it?

Honestly, I miss my supervisor who had been a great mentor to me during my attachment programme, and the credits goes out to my aerospace lecturers who made the arrangements for me to go to Tiger Airways. I miss those days where I am always being reprimanded by him and yet at the end of the day I would always head home with a lesson learnt. Sitting in front of the screen and reflecting back, I still prefer those times where I would sit right outside classrooms with my buddies for being mischievous. Money cannot buy back those times. And yes I know, life has to move on right?

Today was IS lessons and on the way to block 46 alone, I saw a matte lime-green Ferrari parked right beside the Convention Center. I thought to myself: "Why do they lead such blessed lives, without having to slog their guts out to own luxurious cars like these?" Well, the truth is, life is unfair. Just move on with life and be happy with what you have. When I see people with such privileges and bonuses in their academic life, I often think about the sufferings of other people from the third world countries or those who are affected by natural disasters, terrorists' attacks and etc. And I thank God that He has provided everything for me, and I should not complain nor worry about it, because He is the provider and the giver. If only He granted me a Lamborghini... Okay just kidding. :)

I was alone in the computer room as usual getting my exercise done for the 34th (anyhow guess) time, and suddenly the door just opened and I saw someone familiar and pretty of course. Fortunately she was alone too, so I spent most of the time chatting with her and focusing my time on the screen to ensure my analysis operation was smooth. What I enjoyed was chatting with her, what made me frustrated was that the programme kept lagging umpteen times!

And then I saw Joyce, what luck! Walked with her for quite a distance before parting ways, and that's it for today. I met a Ferrari and two girls whom I have not been seeing for a very long time, ever since coming back from China.

The funny thing is, whenever I talked about girls people would raise their eyebrows and assume that anyone of them could be my next life partner. Honestly, the answer is no. It is true that I want to find a girl friend, but I don't think rushing things would benefit me or her.

* Bomb.

No worries la, readers. When the time comes... it will come.

:)

the start of the week.

hello comrades, it has been a long time ever since coming back to Blogger. seriously, as the end of the year is coming. i just feel that there are so many things piling up on my shoulders, and yet here i am procrastinating about them instead of executing it. if i had a bag of cash right now, i would definitely travel around the world * winks.

school has increasingly become a bore, but the thought of graduating from this last semester motivated me to move on. believe or not, at the end of the 3 years' academic life in Ngee Ann Polytechnic, i will become very lazy and stupid. who is to blame? me of course. i have been too dependent on lecturers and the people around me in terms of practicals and projects, my two major weaknesses so far. i have to turn them into my strong points, if not the probability of surviving in the working society would be minimal.

okay time for the bed. good night.

ever since i got back from china, i realized everything has been advancing so fast. especially when i have never been preparing for the youth camp, i am thankful for my team of game committee members who have been there for me while i was away.

i have disappointed God once again and again and again, and towards some friends whom i have been closed with for years.

the end of one exam paper, brings out the start of a new beginning for me.

emotion: moodless and tired, but can't sleep?

i only have about a few hours to type my final report, i know i will not be able to make it for tomorrow's lessons on time again. it starts at 8pm for you information, and i am going to lose sleep again just like old times in sichuan. somehow, i just feel very moody over a lot of things right now.
i am so glad to have listened to planet shakers' latest album in the school library, at least that calmed me down.

i know i have disappointed a lot of friends recently, i have no one else to blame but myself. i always speak without thinking of the consequences, and the words that come out from my mouth are just a form of entertainment, and thinking back, have i ever been serious with myself before? i recently just made a close friend of mine disappointed over football, i know it sounds crazy, but the both of us really treasured those times when we played together. yesterday, i promised him we would play in the evening, then i fell out on my words once again. i received a text from him that he's not gonna play with us the next time. i just hope that it was a moment of frustration. i am sorry bro.

anyway, just a little sidetrack, i am very happy for choy for leading a boy to Christ for the first time in his life. i can understand his indescribable emotions, and when would i ever have that kind of chance to do that? haha.

these few days after arriving back in town i have been hanging out with kok chye, olivia and wei qian. few of the best pals i ever had right now in my life, wonder what happened if they weren't there for me. cause in school right now, what i can see right now is just on the surface, except for the fact that zhi yuan has been posted to my class for this last semester. i am damn worry about my next partner for this particular project which cost me about 6 credits. its a huge test of faith for me if he were to be someone who doesn't care about grades...

Lord, lead me away to somewhere far...

i think no one in Singapore would believe what i have to say after today's incident.

yao jun called me in the early morning telling me that i had practical lessons at 9am. time check : 9.30am
i quickly rushed and packed everything and got ready at around 9.45am, at that time i was prepared to cab down to school.

i got down to hail for a cab, and for the next 20 minutes i could not get one. finally one came but he told me he could only get me around woodlands, so i waited for another 30 minutes and finally all the cabs were either hired or didn't bother to pick me up. i was seriously pissed with all the cab drivers in Singapore, and had the sudden urge to point the middle finger and hurled vulgarities at myself.

eventually i reached school at 12pm and lessons were already over. wilfred said something which made almost wanted to break his face. what a great start to welcome my life here, i cannot wait to earn and head back to Sichuan and bring here back to stay with me... Maybe its just infatuation, at least she was the one who brought me those happy memories on the final days of my stay there.

i can't seem to think properly and straight now, one moment i think of my studies, the next moment my youth camp, then her, then my friends whom i have not been meeting for the past 6 weeks. my stomach and head keep spinning till i cannot walk and breathe properly. shit... its time for another hibernating session.

Hasta La Vista Sichuan

one more day before i leave sichuan. initially i told everyone that i wanted to come back to singapore during the first week of the trip. since it's the last day in this place, i am definitely going to miss this place, and the people here, and of course her...

for 6 weeks, i am so fortunate because the hostel that i lived in has a toilet bowl! mr. lee said that we were supposed to stay in another campus where 8 people had to stay together and there were no toilet bowls, which meant that we had to squat. heng arh~ because my aiming sucks when i try squatting (ask wei qian and kok chye, they know it while we were at Kunming last year.)

i still have to say, the girls here in chengdu are much more nicer than singapore. my lecturer commented that every 3 step i take, i will see 张曼玉，every 5 step i take, i would see 凌青霞。roaming the streets of orchard road, i wonder how many step i have to take to find one like that, or maybe i need to run marathon before i can see one beautiful girl.

anyway even as i prepared to fly back to singapore, i am not prepared enough to face some of toughest obstacles in my life. yeah, just received the prayer and fasting list from sinong. speaking of which, have i been doing my own quiet time down here in sichuan? honestly i have not been praying ever since the 2nd week of this trip. i was away from God for a month while i was down here... i really miss Him and those whom i've been with in singapore.