Anticipating the deadline...

The time now is 3.40am, and I am staring at my grandfather clock waiting for it to turn 6, so that I can wash up and head to school in the early crisp of the morning. This is it, 31st December 2009, the day that most of my classmates wouldn't want this day to come fast. Even as I am writing this post, almost all of them are online now, mugging on their final report. I don't feel a single stress now at all, because I have not even started on my analysis. Is that a good or bad?

When I heard that the deadline was pushed forward to 1pm, I was delighted. I was prepared to head to Malaysia in the evening, but now, I am able to spend some time to prepare myself for the countdown to new year!

Huh? What? There's still WISP and Human Factors project left to do?

......

Great...

But you know what? I tell you what I am going to do first...

Fuck these two shit, and party to the morn with my cliques!!!

Just kidding, I will start doing them on the first day of New Year. Don't worry, my project team mates.

The last semester have been a pretty disastrous one. People around me are telling me to pick myself up and start my engine because they have been covering up my ass for a month! Nick told me to stop stepping on other toes in order to seek help if not I will become worst and taking them for granted. Yao Jun has been reprimanding me regarding my behaviour and attitude at work, but still helping me through the tough times. TZR is telling me to wake up and told me that ABC is starting to avoid me because I often disturb him by going to his house to stay and... So much more bad things.

I appreciated them for the above mentioned, without it, I would be stuck. At least they tell me in the face, and not from the back.

Some told me that they can't see the old self of mine during year 1, right now indeed I feel like shit. I wanna get back to that old times, those days whenever projects or assignments were due, I could take them all, because I was King of last minute work. I could close one eye and get my As in no time, and knock every single one who was in front of me. I did not need to seek help or whatsoever shit, but now...

What's in the past is in the past. I have changed, but for better or worst, it's not for me to decide, it's for God.

In this new year, I will make the greatest comeback of all times that any polytechnic student has ever seen. I will make myself recognized before every lecturer that has taught me, and I will, I repeat, change for the better.

ddacp, BRING ON THE FEMAP AND CFD...

The End?

I promise I will start on my project once I've finished blogging, promise promise promise.

Every time when I sign into Messenger at an hour like this, people aren't in their bed still. It's either they are conversing with one another, watching YouTube, praying, or maybe something cheeky over the Internet (obviously men knows this well). Don't you guys cherish those sleep hours? I am craving for it right now, but with the deadline ticking away on my grandfather clock, I have no choice but to hang on.

On a positive note, at least Singapore isn't a racist country, the results of Singapore Idol (or Suria Idol preferably) was expected as usual. Some suggestions from bloggers included getting a Christian singer to participate in the next competition and get mega churches to dial in and get the votes. I don't mind singing though, just that the queuing process would be quite a chore.

Counting down to one day left before the new beginning of a new year. I am definitely feeling excited about it. New performances, new challenges, new journey ahead, but still, no change in my relationship status. I will be meeting new people as I progress on to the next stage of life, but hopefully I would be able to meet Jesus, or at least hear Him speak to me in 2010.

I was being asked this question: "Was Jesus born on Christmas? Scientifically, He was born on the 3rd BC. " (I am not sure whether this is biblically correct) What made this super hilarious was when the definition of B.C was Before Christmas...

Hahahaha.

Anyway, I think that's about it. And I have not been sms-ing for 3 days already. Good improvement, I shall control myself and keep it up. At least for now...

Counting down to another year.

I am nineteen years old, I accepted Christ before I turned eighteen, I've been involved in my first mission trip during Christmas last year. I came back with an awesome testimony as to how God changed my life.

In 2009, I was supposed to be serving my attachment at Goodrich, plans changed and I was attached to Tiger Airways for six months. I met a very nice yet strict supervisor who's been taking care of me, throughout the six months. Church camp clashed with my attachment period, and Ngee Ann Polytechnic has never allowed students to take leave for such events. It was the first time the rule had been overlooked and I enjoyed my first ever church camp. Interim report, final report and those difficult days during the internship, I have endured them all. Cabin crew training program was awesome too.

Cell-group gatherings every Saturday were great, because of the many imperfect people who gathered together to worship and praise God. It made that day simply perfect for all of us, and the relationship between cell members was at its highest peak when the Sound of Resurrection formed in the first quarter of the year. Performances in school and church allowed S.O.R to gain recognition from the public. It was special. The Sound of Resurrection is actually a percussion team.

China trip to Sichuan was another period of madness, at the same time, it became a turning point of my spiritual life. I started to backslide, and at the same time, I was supposed to plan for the upcoming youth camp which was due on December. Booze, fun, women and grades were the only focal points of my life during that time. God wasn't involved in any of the above mentioned. God did something, He ensured that I had the finances to bring me to such a place.

I came back, kinda felt weird and lost when I went back to cell, somehow I never thought of coming back to Singapore at all. Pushed myself to move on with life as everything began to accelerate in academic life and the upcoming events in church.

Youth-quake and the Ignite Youth camp were probably the ones that brought me back to life after being stuck and lost in direction for so long. The people from the camp brought me back to know my focus and direction, and I was glad the camp succeeded. Of course, being game-master unfortunately took all the credits from God, and I wasn't sure whether the hearts of these people were touched by God anot. Learnt a lot from the camp, but soon I began to fall away from Him, again.

This year was great because I had a decent birthday celebration and receive a lot gifts from friends and loved ones and also from Christmas. Honestly, I have never been that pampered before. Being a stingy and ignorant person, I really had a hard time adapting to such warmth and sweet accommodation. It was touching, I wanted to cry, but I couldn't.

Christmas eve, Christmas and Boxing Day almost wrapped up all the significant events that had happened over the year two thousand and nine. Another time of fellowship with the brothers, and it was nice. Talking about almost everything under the sun, and it was just natural.

Thoughts about the year 2010? Yes, preparation to serve the nation and plan for the future.

It's also the year that I will see a '2' in my age. The beginning of adulthood, the beginning of everything. A year that I will learn to sit, walk and stand with God faithfully, because this year I honestly have not been spiritually studying. All I know is to attend church, worship and cell-group, with no specific purpose. Unless I really understand my purpose, I would still be living a normal life, sinning and being late for church service every time...

Christmas and Boxing Day

One word - U.N.F.O.R.G.E.T.T.A.B.L.E.

Christmas Day Eve:

1645 - Afternoon movie date with the regulars, watched 'Avatar' and it was 5-star rating movie.

1935 - Rushed down to Bugis to get Christmas gifts and followed by another midnight movie, 'Sherlock Holmes', another awesome movie.

0225 - Slacked with Kok Chye and Wai Chong in town awhile.

0400 - Met Amelia at Woodlands and chatted.

0600 - Got home to prepare the gifts for the gift exchange in church.

Christmas Day:

0800 - Still in the midst of preparation for the gifts, went online and Facebook to prevent from falling asleep.

1000 - Reached church, received presents from friends.

1030 - Christmas service.

1200 - Gift exchange time between cell group members, also a time of receiving gifts from people!

1300 - Lunch at Queens-town before getting started on the props for another encore of the drama at the Church of Good Shepherd.

1400 - Props set-up and preparation

1600 - Christmas service with the drama at COGS.

1800 - Interaction with cell group members who turned up and it was dinner time, headed to Queens-town market for char kway teow with them.

2030 - Headed home to get myself packed and ready for stayover at Choy's place with the brothers.

Boxing Day:

0600 - Chatting with the bros on the bed after having supper at Mac's with them. Played Truth No Dare. Super interesting conversation.

1400 - Woke up and headed to Compass Point for late lunch.

1730 - Rushed down to Christ Church Secondary for props preparation and final round of encore for the drama, this time with video recording.

2245 - Everything ended.

2300 - Supper included dough sticks, beancurd and soya bean at Yishun. Thanks to Pastor Daniel, Pastor Joseph and Kelvin Hoon. (:

0000 - Reached home. (and bathed immediately)

Do you know how I felt when I was away from home for more than a day? I actually started to feel homesick for the first time, and what made it worst was not being able to bathe, and you start to hear complaints from people saying you stink and blah blah blah. I really thank God for my bathroom, cause I loved it. The moment I reached home, I threw my bag and stripped my clothes in a matter of split seconds and cooped myself in the bathroom already. That was simply heaven.

Next, did some housekeeping with all my birthday and Christmas gifts. This year was really special for me, because it wasn't like this in those previous years. My birthday was interrupted by the pathetic common tests and revision, on Christmas nobody bothered to come out they were busy preparing for the final exams. That was my life in the past.

The past 3 days was really special and unforgettable. Gatherings with the brothers in Christ was definitely worth it, though I always complained about my grades and projects in front of them. I never regretted spending time with them, and so I prepared some small gifts for them. Little did I know that, I couldn't count my gifts received from the people in church! What made me guilty was that I didn't even prepared for them. Shit.

Next year, I will make it up next year, definitely and absolutely.

Fun's time over. Now hell begins, in this period of 4 days. I am going to suit up in my best health condition and fight the projects. With men, everything is impossible (Looks at my classmates). With God, everything is possible.

I can do it, not because I can, but God can.

This is my prayer: To graduate smoothly from this polytechnic, get the desired diploma and get into a university. Reading the bible more often so that I can teach the younger ones.

But first, I need one in order to read the bible... oppps

Christmas Eve

Everybody wants presents on Christmas, some prefer surprises, some just prefer cash. I've received a 50 dollar bill note from my parents, and honestly I needed that to get presents for my friends. This year's Christmas theme is Budget. It sounds stingy, but don't you agree that expensive stuffs don't really mean anything? It just makes you feel good and 'distinct', but it doesn't make you a better person at all. The problem with me is I cannot bake, if I could I would bake a lot of pastries and give to people without having to fret about getting gifts.

Christmas is a time of receiving, and I've received 3 major projects and their deadlines are due next week. I got a pair of socks from Elaine, shorter from last year (a pair of soccer socks), but still appreciated it a lot. Thanks~ Take good care while you are away on a short visit back in Malaysia!

Looking back at Christmas last year, I was still at China still in the midst of preparation for the camp in the village at X'banna, Yunnan. A mission trip was the gift to those people over there, and it was worth it. It wasn't going to be the last mission trip, in fact it was the first and more to come! Right now, Christina's in Mexico with that same purpose, and the awesome fact is that she's gonna celebrate Christmas there!

Christmas is a time when Jesus Christ was born into this world, and his life wasn't going to be easy at all (He was born in a manger). Many people failed to recognize such an important truth, instead they are blinded by the other 'purpose' - receiving gifts under a tree and waiting for Santa to come down from the chimney. Mind you that there are no chimneys nowadays in Singapore, I am trying to think of something funny as I am typing this as to how Santa will wriggle his way through the house.

Santa and Satan. Are they actually the same?

There is no Christmas without Christ. Amen.

Tang Yuan & Time Management

I thought I didn't had the chance to eat glutinous rice ball with my family, and fortunately my mom cooked them at home! While waiting for that delicacy, I decided to do some self-reflection on my time management. Honestly, a lot of people have been covering up my ass for almost this entire year, no matter what happens, somehow there's bound to be something that will pop up last minute to save my ass.

Time management, if not handled with care and discipline, can be a major sin for me, because my team mates have been covering up for me, feeding the required information and tasks I have to complete before the deadlines which are due next week. I assured them that they will definitely get a treat from me after all these screwed up deadlines that are making life miserable for the entire aerospace cohort. What's even worse is the competition in our class, I shan't mention anything here, in case shit happens.

I was really offended when I heard that, and totally disappointed. Oh well, shit happens. It's the personality, and hope shit will happen on that person when he enters the national service. (:

9 days and counting

Events that happened in the year 2009:

Attachment @ Tiger Airways

Church camp @ Port Dickson

Overseas Immersion Programme @ Sichuan

Youth Camp, Ignite 2009

Christmas Event Outreach

Birthday celebration

Standard Chartered 42.105km Marathon

End of common tests...

What's next?

In another 9 days, we will welcome the arrival of the year 2010. However, in during this period, there are actually 3 deadlines waiting to be completed by the end of the year. This is great, furthermore, the Christmas gift exchange is this week! Who would be my angel? What am I gonna get for all my fellow brothers and sisters, with that amount of money I have left? I am totally left 4 dead...

I am gonna get myself started on the first project after being ignorant of it for the past 5 weeks. Over the next few days, it would be the ...

My Aircraft Propulsion System paper burnt halfway, so that my marks would be half of the total marks too.

Love is like a picture with all your loved ones standing together with a Christmas tree.

The L4D ministry boys at Japan.

Thank God for Friday even though many might not make it for tomorrow's Armageddon. It means I have to buck up for the percussion practice tomorrow in the final full dress rehearsal. This month is a total surprise to me. Ignite youth camp, friends accepting Christ around me, birthday celebrations and best of all the Christmas event which will be due this Saturday. The best addition would be the clash of the common tests and projects with the above mentioned. Time management is indeed very important if I want to be successful in both areas. People often criticize the church because they make people serve in many aspects and ministries.

However, I know its not an excuse. I've seen people done it, gone through it and made it. What about me? I don't blame anyone for this shit. Shit always happens. Self-procrastination is a sin, I need to seriously put all my focus in this final hurdle, which is tomorrow. Whether I make it or not, God you decide. I will do my best, and you will do the rest. Help me complete this last hurdle of the year before I finally breathe my last breath.

The common tests are here, but I am not putting my focus on them. I still have not post on my birthday yet, and suddenly I lost the mood to blog already. Bye.

It's the 600th post!

God is good! Whoosh! Ignite! Boomz! Ignite! Boomz! Ignite Ho Seh Bo!

These were the rants during the amazing four days three nights camp @ Diary Farm Adventure Center. The Ignite Youth Camp 2009 was indeed a success, thanks to the entire camp committee who made it happen, but the campers were the ones who made the camp PERFECT. (:

This camp gave me another insight to God's purpose for me, which was to reach out to these fellow campers and teach them about God's word and knowledge. I was guilty enough to admit that throughout my walk with Him, I procrastinated about reading the bible and when students actually approached me wanting to know more about God, I couldn't share the word with confidence. But I still thank Him for this camp, and the direction He has brought me back to focus on.

Indeed there were many loop-holes and break downs in communication during the planning and execution of games, but it was a reminder from God that the games were secondary, but these people were the priority of this camp. And true enough, many lives were saved by the grace of God during the camp! Amen! The presence of God was so strong in during the night sessions that I could feel it moving throughout the place and hearts of everyone.

After so many years of good results and grades, I actually neglected a lot of people around me, maybe that's the reason why I have very little friends to hang around or talk to. And it's because of such pathetic competition that has led us to politics surfacing in classes or disputes among friendships. But I still thank God for all this, because friends will come and go, but God you will never let go. Someday the world will end, but your word never dies and you will reign in the kingdom of heaven.

I love everything about the camp, the bunks, the people, the food, the games and the cheers from each of the teams. Of course I love the sessions too! Because lives were saved every night, and through this camp, God opened up their hearts, so that they may lead the lives with full of confidence, to step out from that emptiness or fear that has been living inside them for years.

Today, many out there refuse to accept or know God. Because they fear, they fear that their weaknesses in them will be exposed, they fear that if they accept God, the world will persecute them and reject them. The journey with God isn't a bed of roses, there will be many downs rather than ups, but God will bring you through everything, and you will witness His power and glory, so that you may be testimonies to those who have yet to open up their spiritual eyes and ears to Him.

Next year's camp would be even better! (:

Amen.

Your GameMaster
Nicholas