Dumbstruck

Thursday was supposed to be trekking day with my beloved game committee members, due to the rainy weather which would be a huge factor on the youth camp, it was canceled. Not wasting the time, I stayed in school to complete this two weeks period assignment at the computer lab till 9pm. It's just the start of the semester, some more it's only the third week!

However, modules like this sometimes strengthen the bonds between classmates. We would bound to have arguments every now and then over minor issues from that tutorial. I was glad that I remembered the funny parts of the arguments, and thank God for using my humor to relieve their stresses. But there were also times when I cannot stand them being too sensitive over being correct or accurate after obtaining the results. Come on, it's just a tutorial, not something that would kill you straight if you get it wrong. Wake up your idea la. The trick to surviving and scoring for this module is to be flexible and scheming, not just being hardworking and smart.

While I was walking towards the school bus stop with my classmates, there were four part-time students in front of me. As usual, I was talking loudly about all my random crap and joking about nonsensical stuffs, and something caught my attention. The part-time students were communicating using hand language, and I immediately became dumbstruck. I started reflecting on myself during that instant moment: "What would happen to me if I couldn't speak at all?"

Random thoughts just started flowing through. If I couldn't speak, would I actually become a much better person? The tongue is much more deadlier and devastating than weaponry, and it kills. When I saw these part-time students, I felt damn disappointed in myself, for the fact that I always speak of words that hurt people indirectly or gossip behind people's backs. It's really despicable, but that's human nature. I want to taste the feeling of not being able to speak but rather communicate through hand-signs. Maybe life would be much simpler that way because I don't have to talk at all, another problem solved.

I realized that I have been speaking with a huge amount of sarcasm in every of my sentence. Yes and it's aiming at the people that I know. And I apologize for that, please bear with me, I will and must change this attitude.