i can't imagine i am actually sitting awake and doing my ISO project in the early midst of the morning. such a good time for sleep, okay yao jun is reading this blog too, i better get going with the case study. but before that, let me just go random for awhile.

you know, my dad is great and understanding. though he doesn't know how to show his love, he actually does cares for us. he lend me a huge amount of dang to pay up for my china trip first, if not my application would be terminated from the list. i will definitely pay him after PSEA has issued the reimbursement claims back.

secondly, around 6 plus in the morning, my second brother as usual made the entire house tremble with his non-stop blowing and sneezing of his nose (it has been part of his life since young), and sounds of the Niagara falls in the toilet. my mom and dad has to play a part in seriously reminding him that my 3rd brother has school, and he's late because of his 45 minutes bathing session.

so here comes the scary part, i had this dream, or a nightmare if you called it. but before i had this dream, i was very frustrated with my 2nd brother while lying on the bed. i didn't want to shout or find trouble, i kept it inside my heart, lots of frustration inside. then here comes the nightmare:

Nightmare

i was driving a evolution 9 on the highway back home, automatic transmission of course, and suddenly a horde of racing cars just surrounded me. i entirely lost my front view in front, but fortunately not my life. okay, so i went around telling people that i drove and managed to survive that illegal race scare. marcus, billy, choy, my two brothers were somehow inside the scene, wei qian and i had a big quarrel over some issue which i have forgotten. the two of us walked away and from that moment onwards, we weren't friends or brothers anymore.

now the scary moment: marcus and choy had something on, and they left my house straight away informing me they will be back shortly. the door bell rang, an old lady stood right at the door, i opened the door and let her in, she told me she was in charge of taking care of my two brothers. so she continued with her business and managed to coax my two brother to bed! that was pretty amazing from that old woman, so i went to find a dvd to relax at the living room. while searching for the dvd, i dropped a disc and it showed a devil's picture feasting on human flesh, very gory indeed.

and i heard something, some sort of snorting and chewing, and i tip-toed past the hall and took a peek into the room. oh shit, that lady turned into that devil that was on the disc and eating the crap out of my brother! it was very gory la, and she turned to me and said : "once i am done with your 2nd brother, you are next."

i have never been so scared in my nightmares before, i quickly type an sms to marcus asking him to come home quickly, but my stupid samsung pda phone played a prank on me. i couldn't possibly stay inside the house, i ran out to take the lift down... * blackout. the lift door opened, and she stood right in front of me with those bloody razor sharp teeth and eyes. and...

i quickly open my eyes, got out from my bed, and here i am...

it was really frightening, especially when i saw my two brother being eaten with my own eyes. though i get pissed off with my brothers at times, but to die in this manner made me feel very guilty and disappointed. afterall they are my blood brothers, i should be more mature and think far, not just for my own sake.

Lord, help me on this...amen.