i was punctual for church service, and it was perfect. today is also known as sea sunday, a day to be remembered for the 1.2 million seafarers all around the world. it was a great service, when the speaker shared with us about the lives of these seafarers', and it is such a blessed thing to be at home with my family and friends. to be out at the sea for months is not a pleasant thing at all, we can't predict when the storms would come, or the waves would rage upon the ships. but no matter whether we are high above the skies or down below the seas, God is with us. Amen.
i received a reprimanding message from my supervisor this afternoon. it seems like whatever i do, i just can't get things done the way they are. as the attachment is coming to its end, i really hope to get back to school like the old times. i can't imagine what my life would be if i were to start working full time, like adelene or elaine. maybe i might attend the j.u.m.p talk session to see how i can maintain my biblical roots while staying focused in the fast-moving society.
in the past, whatever mistakes that we committed, we are still kids after all. but turning from 18 to 19 doesn't makes us kid any longer. more responsibilities and burdens come as we grow older, friends come and go in our lives, i am so glad i have some who are still stuck with me, and i really cannot take them for granted. sometimes it sucks being an adult, you have to be the role example for the younger ones, become the mr. know-everything to prevent yourself from losing out to others. imagine if i start serving the country, wonder what kind of person i will be. still the same? only God knows.
the attachment period made me reflected throughout all this while, and i felt that i have really grown mature among my fellow classmates. not being boastful or what, but it seems every week when i go back for lessons, they are still stuck in their own fantasy world. come on, it has been 2 years plus of schooling inclusive of the internship, surely there would be some slight changes in their lives? maybe there are, or maybe i am just being too judgmental of them.
i have my own set of flaws and weaknesses, and i am willing to change them, through the help of my friends and God. and i am thankful of who i am today, because of them.
yesterday i was standing in front of a big crowd organizing icebreakers, it is really nerve-wrecking for me. sometimes i love acting and crapping in front of my friends, because i feel comfortable. but once i am out of that zone, everything starts to feel different. in life, not everything is about me, in the end everything still boils down to servant hood. yes i love being in the lime light, but maybe the role of game master would open my eyes and heart to even greater things.
if i could put pure smiles, joy and laughter from these people's hearts, then i would have achieved the meaning of being a game servant. of course, i need more committed people to help me along the way, cause it's not about me alone, it's about the team! :)
phew... finally got everything out from my chest. that felt better
peace out!
i received a reprimanding message from my supervisor this afternoon. it seems like whatever i do, i just can't get things done the way they are. as the attachment is coming to its end, i really hope to get back to school like the old times. i can't imagine what my life would be if i were to start working full time, like adelene or elaine. maybe i might attend the j.u.m.p talk session to see how i can maintain my biblical roots while staying focused in the fast-moving society.
in the past, whatever mistakes that we committed, we are still kids after all. but turning from 18 to 19 doesn't makes us kid any longer. more responsibilities and burdens come as we grow older, friends come and go in our lives, i am so glad i have some who are still stuck with me, and i really cannot take them for granted. sometimes it sucks being an adult, you have to be the role example for the younger ones, become the mr. know-everything to prevent yourself from losing out to others. imagine if i start serving the country, wonder what kind of person i will be. still the same? only God knows.
the attachment period made me reflected throughout all this while, and i felt that i have really grown mature among my fellow classmates. not being boastful or what, but it seems every week when i go back for lessons, they are still stuck in their own fantasy world. come on, it has been 2 years plus of schooling inclusive of the internship, surely there would be some slight changes in their lives? maybe there are, or maybe i am just being too judgmental of them.
i have my own set of flaws and weaknesses, and i am willing to change them, through the help of my friends and God. and i am thankful of who i am today, because of them.
yesterday i was standing in front of a big crowd organizing icebreakers, it is really nerve-wrecking for me. sometimes i love acting and crapping in front of my friends, because i feel comfortable. but once i am out of that zone, everything starts to feel different. in life, not everything is about me, in the end everything still boils down to servant hood. yes i love being in the lime light, but maybe the role of game master would open my eyes and heart to even greater things.
if i could put pure smiles, joy and laughter from these people's hearts, then i would have achieved the meaning of being a game servant. of course, i need more committed people to help me along the way, cause it's not about me alone, it's about the team! :)
phew... finally got everything out from my chest. that felt better
peace out!
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