sitting in front of my laptop, thoughts began running through my mind. looking back the mission trip i went, it's as if it was just yesterday, and i have returned back to singapore not long ago. after the attachment with tiger airways, i would be embarking on a journey to another province in china, a study trip with all my classmates to chengdu. i hope to use this opportunity to get out of town with full of distractions surrounding me, i really need to take a breather and refreshen myself during the 6 weeks period.
i just watched an episode of 'stars changing hearts' on channel u. the artiste mindee ong travelled to some random mountainside area in china to provide voluntarily work, to simplify it, it was a sort of mission trip which lasts for about a week there. there were many different tribes of the different languages, mindee went to the 'baoyu' tribe area where she laid her focus on a population mostly made up of elderly and abandoned children. fortunately the people there were all people of God, they have a church there too! this programme brought me back many memories and some reflecting points while i was in china last year doing my first ever serious missionary work.
i felt quite disappointed with myself, ever since i came back and all the way till now, i am back in my old self, taking whatever i have in possession for granted. looking at those children who have lost their parents at such a young age, i wonder why my 2nd brother would behave in this manner, showing disrespect and worst still, cursing my mother right in front of her face. yes we humans have feelings, it's fine that we feel frustrated at times, but not to the extent that we let our feelings take control of our mind and words. it is not the outside that makes a man sin, it is what comes out from our heart that makes him/her sin.
i am living in a society full of temptations and different types of people. everyday i see people getting what they've always wanted, doing what they liked without a heck in the world, but they only realize their regrets after something disastrous takes place. why is it that when things happened, people realize their mistakes? why can't they just take precautions and prevent it? the question is why?
i hope the upcoming china trip would be a series of different tests for different people. for me, it would be a test of patience, faith, love and trust. it's mushy i know, but all these i have been lacking ever since at the beginning of attachment...
peace out
i just watched an episode of 'stars changing hearts' on channel u. the artiste mindee ong travelled to some random mountainside area in china to provide voluntarily work, to simplify it, it was a sort of mission trip which lasts for about a week there. there were many different tribes of the different languages, mindee went to the 'baoyu' tribe area where she laid her focus on a population mostly made up of elderly and abandoned children. fortunately the people there were all people of God, they have a church there too! this programme brought me back many memories and some reflecting points while i was in china last year doing my first ever serious missionary work.
i felt quite disappointed with myself, ever since i came back and all the way till now, i am back in my old self, taking whatever i have in possession for granted. looking at those children who have lost their parents at such a young age, i wonder why my 2nd brother would behave in this manner, showing disrespect and worst still, cursing my mother right in front of her face. yes we humans have feelings, it's fine that we feel frustrated at times, but not to the extent that we let our feelings take control of our mind and words. it is not the outside that makes a man sin, it is what comes out from our heart that makes him/her sin.
i am living in a society full of temptations and different types of people. everyday i see people getting what they've always wanted, doing what they liked without a heck in the world, but they only realize their regrets after something disastrous takes place. why is it that when things happened, people realize their mistakes? why can't they just take precautions and prevent it? the question is why?
i hope the upcoming china trip would be a series of different tests for different people. for me, it would be a test of patience, faith, love and trust. it's mushy i know, but all these i have been lacking ever since at the beginning of attachment...
peace out
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