I've spent the whole night yesterday reformatting my stupid laptop, and i really pray that it doesn't have any wireless problems when i bring it to school tomorrow. Not having much hours of sleep though for this whole week, hopefully i don't stress myself out. It's just the early start, come on nicholas, you can do it de.

It was definitely an honor to have Billy coming to find us in Ngee Ann campus, and getting to know my classmates at the same time too. I feel that my classmates are quite fortunate though, cause they get to know students from christ church secondary, i do believe that members like Billy, Ben and Wei Qian would get to interact with them more during our outings. Anyway let's start off with today's menu, i had to fixed my laptop due to the insensitive wireless connection. Spent about an hour or so before heading down to the convention centre in campus to sign up for CCAs. I've signed up for sailing and volleyball, and i believed that i'm going to know many year one students, of course you people should know what type of year ones i'm referring to. Thinking that these two choices were going to be finalized, i somehow heard something that was certainly unpleasant to my ears, that's right, the singers from the Song Composing Club. I knew someone had to be there to salvage the situation, so i decided to sign up too.
Oh yeah, at the convention centre i saw my long lost primary school friend, Jia Ming. I was abit touched when i saw him, still used to remember Wei Qian and I would head to his house almost everyday to play and eat. A soccer mate too, i can't believe my eyes when i saw him, and he just invited me and Wq to his terrace house for a visit. This is definitely going to be gathering, for all admiralty primary school mates. Wei Qian, Teck Yi, Ivan, Rong Kang, Warren, Elvis, and Stephanie! Plus special guest appearace by Nicholas Ng!
Okay i need to head to bed now. Night.

I'm not sure how to begin with this post, but i do know today is the first day of the new semester. Took the new shuttle bus service at woodlands, and holy crap, the interchange was booming with lots of new faces. Lots of beautiful ladies who are taking the shuttle service too, and i believed this year would be a great one, more and more beautiful year one students, some times i think they are better than my batch. Anyway it's been a practical day for me, plus one lecture before ending the day. Seriously this time table has been a slack one, for Wei Qian it was a different case. His time table was almost filled, guess i would be going back home with him everyday in the near future. :)

Aims for this new semester__

earn cca points.
score a 4 pointer.
save up so that i can go for a next yep trip.

Something doesn't seem to be right, i hope all this misunderstandings can be cleared. I'm not stupid, i know what is going on but i don't seem to find the reason for it. That is why i have been quite down these few days, i really hope all this would be over before the start of the next upcoming chalet.
Today i accompanied Zhang Meng to Chinatown to get her tickets back to Shan Dong, where she will be taking her exams for the next two months before coming back to get her diploma at MDIS. Slacked around the area before heading down to Clarke Quay, where we did some shopping and chatted by the river till 9 plus. We went to burger king for a quick dinner before i sent her home. During the trip home, i saw Chien Ming, Billy and their friend Peggy at the bus stop below my house. Chatted with them for a short while before ending the day being super exhausted.
I do hope she will study hard and earn the diploma, at the same time staying here in Singapore and work in the future, if not, she will be heading back to her hometown after acquiring the diploma and never coming back here for a very long time.
Is there anything wrong with me? Please voice out, do not show signs of sarcasm and words of criticism. Be a man.

I am so dead exhausted after today's freshmen orientation programme. Expect more crap tomorrow cause i am going to be in charge of one of the games station. Seeing other schools whose orientation programmes are much more better and livelier, makes me think that our school of engineering can do much more better in terms of organization and creation of the games. Today was quite a mess, we started the games at 3pm, when we were supposed to start at 1.15pm. One of the reasons why other schools' orientation programmes might be better than us is the ratio of female students to male. All i can say to my juniors in their year ones, better not regret stepping into the school of engineering, accept the fact that almost 85% of the cohort are guys, the remaining belongs to girls and other breed.
Okay, i need my sleep, i am dead tired.

My 360th post of the day! Time really passes very fast, i still can remember the day i started out on my first blog, that was during secondary two. I was cooped up at home the whole day due to the lack of pocket money that mom gave me. I spent a bomb yesterday while i was outside with the AT guys at plaza singapura, so that explains everything. Around 9 plus i was walking back from vista point and suddenly this name appeared in my cellphone, so i decided to dial this number. Trying to guess who she is? You're right, I went to meet Zhang Meng, who was getting groceries from the supermarket. The both of us chatted under her block talked about many things, she explained to me about guys who were born in the month of december, which was relatively interesting and logical indeed. We chatted until quite late before sending her home. It was a long time since i last saw her, i still remember the first time when she came to singapore and around that time was her birthday. Knowing that she had no relatives here, friends like Mandy, Chengzhu and me of course celebrated her birthday at cineleisure. Well, that would always be something hard to forget. :)

Today Wednesday and i'm going back to school to help with the freshmen orientation programme. Can't wait to acquire cca points! Okay i will be going to catch the Uefa champions league matches later on at kok's house. Chelsea must qualify to face either arsenal or liverpool depending on the outcome later morning. Ciaos people!

Today was definitely not a good monday to start off. Headed down to Toa Payoh and got lost while trying to find my way to the Touch community center, and i did asked for directions while navigating the route, but these by-passers never seemed to know where the place is. Finally, i used my feelings to bring me to my destination and i realized i was the only guy from my group B3. Crap. As i was the only pathetic male soul from B3, i was grouped together with the 3 musketeers from LSCT. Only two words to describe during that time at that moment ' Sian Bodoh! '. Queenie asked me to join their group if i wanted, but i rather turned them down, don't want to look like i'm so desperate to join them. So the journey to send food packets to the old folks' homes began, taking a bus down to the required destination and plus some walking while carrying the food packets does seemed a little tiring though.
Managed to deliver all the food packets in one piece, actually that felt good, i did interacted with these old folks in different languages.
Doing volunteering work on a monday evening does feel refreshing, but what i'm quite sick of is the second half of the night, which took place at plaza singapura. Well i am not quite sure what i am pissed off, but i was in quite a bad mood. Fortunately Louis and Trey accompanied me to walk around the shopping center, met Sophia Ong at her work-cum-study place, with her bunch of colleagues there. Wonder if they encounter with my hair what will their expressions on their faces be like. ' No no, I'm sorry sir, your hair is the toughest i've ever seen, no i will not wash this hair of yours. ' . Speaking of hair, my mom wants me to get a hair cut, but i want to keep it long, then trim it. I'm stil thinking of a new hairstyle that will suit my outlook.

Do you know, almost 85 percent of female students in polytechnics actually go for the appearances before looking thoroughly into their personalities and stuffs? I'm really disappointed cause my looks has not reached the passing grade already, and the only thing to make them appreciate me is time. First impression that girls will have on me is that i am crude, an ' ah beng ' and etc. However, time allowed me to make them change that impression on me. Time is the solution, but i do not have much time now. I'm stepping into the next level, second year in polytechnic. I'm lagging behind time, i need to be ahead of it. All this would soon be over, starting from next week.



Things are getting less complicated, maybe avoiding her might be the best medicine.

It's 2 plus in the morning and my eyes are still wide open staring at the laptop screen. Due to my lack of inspiration, chapter 4 would not be available till next week. I'm finally left with one week to enjoy what i have missed during the two weeks in china. Of course, i will be heading down to the movies and town, and that depends who will be free to accompany me. Once the new semester starts, i would be very busy due to the preparation of the Minds' carnival, sending food deliveries to Touch community centre at toa payoh for my I&E module, not mentioning all those workload i am going to face for example thermofluid 2. But with consistent practice comes perfect GPA score, okay i better stop being arrogant.
I kinda miss those times at the chalet, especially the drinking session and others various activities that i did with the talk cock group. Wonder when will be the next chalet, but i don't think i would be the next organiser, it's very stress! Ask billy if you don't believe, he was my so-called assistant during the preparation for the chalet. I have yet to ask the committee about my performance as a organiser, if you ask me, i think i have not passed the test. But i promised myself i would do a better job the next time, but not for the next chalet though, even spiderman needs to have a break too.
Alright! Today i will be heading down to Toa Payoh to send food packets to the Touch community centre for the elderly people. Do not be shocked, I am just doing this because i need good grade for my I&E module, not because i have all the time in the world. In fact, in my secondary days, i used to visit old folks' home and learnt about their past. Some with smiles on their faces, some wished they left this place and travelled to somewhere peaceful. If i had a family, i would make sure my sons and daughters would not leave me in one of those places. Okay okay i seemed to be going further and further. I'm heading to bed now. Nights and ciaos!

In a few more days, i am going to be a year 2 student in ngee ann polytechnic. But, i'm still not getting prepared for it. This week was packed with lots of activities, like the talk cock group chalet, class and the YEP china trip bbq gatherings.Though the first two bbq gatherings were the most exciting ones, i actually learnt how to start fire on the third bbq gathering, which is something i'm quite happy about. Usually qing wen, billy and wq would set up the fire before the start of the bbq, and then i would cook the food with the rest of the other talk cock members. Today, i met louis and together we went down to queenie's house for the bbq gathering. We reached there quite early, saw trey, yj and the girls. Initially, i was quite nervous when attempting my first time to start a fire, as experts like billy and qw were not there. But that first time became a successful one for me, i was quite impressed with myself.
Soon the others arrived, and i started to cook the food for them, of course some were quite unhappy, due to the shortage of the bbq food. I remembered there was one time while i was bbq-ing the satay and served the girls, one of them complained that it was not golden brown enough, so i thought i did not the timing for the satay was wrong and decided to bbq again. After countless of times, i realize that she was still not happy with the satay colour, i thought to myself, ' huh?! what's wrong with my bbq skills today? why isn't she happy with my satay? ' I was quite down and went back to the bbq pit and explained to trey the incident. So i told myself, this would be the last attempt. I gave her again, and this time i still failed but she told me that someone did actually bbq-ed the satay that she actually wanted. And this particular guy really pissed me off totally. Of all guys, why him?
I became quite moody for some while, okay to be honest, i was very sad. I became quiet for most of the time, eating those leftover stingrays just to keep myself positive. Suddenly this guy came over and served us the food he cooked, and i had a smile on my face. ' So, this is your so-called culinary skills huh ? ' It was a total mess, his chicken wings were over cooked, and his satay... was the worst. It actually has charcoal all the sides of the meat, and she still have the cheek to tell me that his satay was good? I get it now, she loves satay with charcoal all over it. Weird taste she has.
It felt good getting this incident off my chest, well i really thought she could appreciate all my effort in that satay for her, but i guess she took it for granted... Maybe i should stay away from her for the time being. I'm going to bed now, nights.

It wasn't meant to be...

Coming back from the chalet especially without any sleep from last night is super tiring and my body aches from my head all the way to the toe. Should not have started that morning jog with billy, but still, i have no regrets la. There are quite a number of stuffs i want to say, but only after final bbq, i've been having lots of chicken wings and inhaling the amount of charcoal while helping out with the food. Better rest for the next few days before the opening of our new semester. Oh yeah i'm still looking for a job, anyone who has ' lobang ' can contact me and intro me that job of yours. Thanks and i'm heading for bed now. Nights.

Turning Points Of My Life - Chapter 3

6 months had passed since my first year here, I thought to myself, ' Have i acheived anything yet ? '. Except for being in good in my 2.4km run for every PE lessons, i realized that my studies have been deteriorating due to my lack of discipline. But during these 6 months in my first year, i learn to experience something also known as love. Love allowed to me to open up my heart in front of the opposite partner, and giving me more confidence in myself as a person. Audrey was my first love, she gave me this feeling, so strong yet making me feel weak at the same time. Jong was the first to know about my feelings for her i suppose, and he encouraged me to go all the way for her heart. Well, we did got together, but after less than 2 months, we broke up. Suprising isn't it? All that talk about love and things went 'kaboom'. Being in a relationship is easy, but holding on to a relationship was something difficult. I was sad for some time, but soon, this feeling of love began to transform into something evil, also known as hatred. Hatred allowed to me to say bad things about her, it felt good. I felt i had done nothing wrong, anyway she initiated the break-up, she was in the wrong. From this first relationship i had, i became even worse, i became flirtatious. The journey ahead was beginning to seem more complicated than usual.
Okay, never about me for one moment, let's bring the focus on to Jong. Some of you might wonder, did Jong liked anyone in our class before? The answer is yes. The number of girls he liked in my class was quite exaggerating. But not all at once, it's like one at a time. If i remembered, he used to like mandy, audrey, chee san, hui wen, hui lun, and etc. Jong's feelings for them changed very fast, it's just like changing his clothes. The girls, however, did not have feelings for him at all and Jong became dejected. The reason why the word rejected was not used it's because i did not want to be harsh, anyway i'm already being harsh by writing this story from start. And this became one of the reasons which led to the mutation of Jong in the second
year...

Chapter 4 coming soon...

Turning Points In My Life - Chapter 2

Stepping into secondary life for the first time in my life, it felt like those days during primary school, seeing new faces everywhere i go. However, in this class of mine, there were actually two students whom had faces i've seen before. Jong and wq, the two friends of mine whom were in the primary school with me. I felt quite relief now knowing that they were in my class, and hopefully things would go smoothly through this life in the first year of this secondary journey. I switched places and sat with Jong, where we got even on better terms this time round compared to the past, as we chatted about almost everything in class everyday. Of course, we loved making fun of our classmates, especially the girls. Notice that during this period of time, i have not talked about the other side of Jong, so you have to read the following chapters to find out more about him. Mandy was the first classmate the both of us knew, and when we tend to tease her, she would turn around and scold us. Cleon, sitting at the back, would always talk to us about girls stuffs too. Yeah, i felt quite contented with my class sitting arrangement, no complaints at all. Even in Literature classes, our teacher Mr Chow also love talking to us, as we were always the jokers of the class, well most of the time Jong would crack funny jokes relating to literature and we would laugh throughout the whole lesson. But things started to change as the month reaches mid July... It started to get worse as our results weren't that good, especially for Literature. In the end, both of our places were switched to prevent further noise pollution in the class. This time, hell approaches...

A soccer match, which ended up in one injuring his leg while the other got pissed off with us. Both of them not coming for the chalet, one who is injured i can understand, but the other did not wanna come because we won against his team. Isn't this an act of childishness?

Yesterday was my brother chien ming's 19th birthday, and people like sophia, ivan, kok chye, benjamin, yu jie, wei qian and billy were present during his celebration at 888. Wei qian had to leave early due to his worship practice on saturday morning. So it was left with the few us around that area, and my brothers pop many bottles of Heneiken, and this continued all the way til 4 plus in the morning, though sophia left for home during the interval. We talked about many things and did nonsense too, especially when ivan and kok chye put nuts into my beer, which tasted like plain water in the end. It's been a long time since something like this was done already, a small gathering like this, where everyone sat together and chatted. Though i was stress in planning out for the chalet, i felt it was worth it. :) Anyway i woke up quite late, and i would be having a soccer match later on at 5pm at woodgrove sec soccer field, it's going to be quite fierce i believe, given that the opponents are older than us but almost all of us had played against them in the carpark. So this match is a battle of pride, honour and glory, and not mentioning the 8 bucks that each of us had to fork out for the referee and the soccer field. I think the win should be able to make the money worthwhile. Alright people, Let's do This!

P.S : Didn't expect billy loo to read the turning points of my life chaper 1 ' Jong ' =)

This week the trend, it was me waking up at 10am and doing the same routine every morning. Push-ups and cleaning my room, breakfast and slacking the whole day at home playing my PS2. That's my current lifestyle at the moment, but this week was special, 4 out of 5 of my best friends are going to be one year older. Mandy, Yao Jun, Adam and Chien Ming are the few march babies to celebrate their birthdays this week. Tomorrow, or today is Chien Ming's birthday, and i hope that we will be meeting up to celebrate his birthday. Even if some of us cant celebrate, during the chalet, there's always time to help celebrate the march babies. I have been waiting for the call from this restaurant but it seems to me that they might not be interested in hiring me. This might be bad news as i am seriously broke, and i never wanted to ask money from my parents cause my second brother always takes money from them, and i did not want to increase the diameter of the hole in their wallets. Anyway, the days of the chalet is coming near, and hopefully the whole thing wouldn't become a failure. I think i have not done much in terms of the bbq preparations and other stuffs, mostly all the plannings are done by chien ming and the ' not-coming' kok chye. I feel bad about this, i want to be part of the whole organizing thing, which ended in me not contributing much to it. I thought to myself, maybe i am not cut out for events & management.

I've been thinking, if i work during weekdays after school, will it affect my studies? Well never mind about for the time being, now there's is something i want to complain, and this concerns members of the talk cock group. Why do most of the talk cock group members' birthdays fall in the month of march?! And moreover, given the financial status i am in, i cant even get a single present for most of my buddies, and i am feeling very guilty about it. I would like to apologize to them and i will make up to them during the chalet period. I will make sure this chalet will be an unforgettable one for them. I will invite Joash to do the honours, okay that was just a joke.

Seeing some of my brothers back from the trip was quite a relief, they are all still as same and lame as ever, which makes me feel like home again. But i feel that i am beginning to miss those times when all of us would be together hanging out at places, be it low class or high class, we would chat and make jokes everywhere we go, and we never seemed to stop. As some of us are preparing to step into the second year in campus, some are starting as freshmen in their year ones, but in different campuses (Singapore Polytechnic, Nanyang Polytechnic). Starting from this year onwards, it is going to be a very tough journey ahead. Less dinner gatherings, less outings and etc. Honestly i do not want this to happen in our group, to me, without them i would not become the person i am today. Without them, i would be someone who has not experienced what life is, and the taste of having true friends beside you to point out your mistakes and allowing you to become a better person. My group of ' never-say-die ' brothers, is one of the turning points in my life. Having chalet gatherings once or twice in a year allows us to meet up and chat about our daily lives' events. Without the chalet gathering, i don't think the bond in the group would be as strong as ever. So i treat every chalet gathering seriously, and members who cant turn up due to important reasons are acceptable, but giving excuses like having no money and whatsoever, please have the decency to learn how to save up responsibly.

I think i have been talking too much about all this stuffs, hope you readers don't find it too boring. Cause there are some things that i need to spill out and broadcast it through this blog.

Stepping into poly life was quite a difficult step for me, cause i was always inside my comfort zone. Very reluctant to open up myself and socialise with the outside world, that was a negative side of me which affected my life in poly quite seriously. The day i stepped into my class, it gave me an impression of a class full of nerds and scholar wannabes. I just simply hate that kind of class, but but something allowed me to change that impression of it. And that something was time. Time allowed me to know more of the people in my class, and through time, i got to know a few trusted friends, and they acted as a mirror to me, allowing myself to see my mistakes and changing some negative characteristics of myself. A year has passed, the bond that was initially weak became very strong among us. Also going to the YEP trip has definitely made me understand more of my trusted friends and allowing me to understand myself too. It was only a pity that jin hong, zheng rong and ze ting did not join us for that trip. If they do, i would like to see the true colours hidden within their outer shells. Take for example my bro Trey, my first impression on him was that he loves slacking in class, and talks alot about girls, just like me. But through the trip, he was our leader, and this made me feel there was another side of him. He was serious and shows full participation and puts lots of effort to ensure our safety, and that everything would go smoothly for the trip.

For me, i believe that these friends are part of my life, be it good or bad, i will never walk out on them. But if they do things that annoy me or disappoint me, maybe there is a reason behind everything. I must learn to understand and accept them.

Til then...

Turning points in my life___

today i would like to share a story of someone. okay i will name him ' Jong '. from young, Jong loves gambling, and he loves to tell his friends his favourite quote, ' when i first started out gambling, you were still drinking your mom's milk! ' yeah, in terms of appearances, he was super retro, and no one dared to use him as a fashion icon. instead people insulted and criticise him behind his back. everytime he walks pass my class during those primary school days, i would stare at him with envy. everywhere he goes, he possess this influence in himself that people who were near him would bowed their heads down. although some people did not like him for who he is, i respected him and of course i got to know him through connections. when i finally started talking to him, the first sentence i began was soccer bets, i asked him for hints on this particular soccer match. his reply was simple, ' if you followed my bets, i confirm guarantee chop you sure win big big money! ' words from a wise man, and i was captivated by greed, so i decided to bet on this particular match.

eventually i won money out from the game, and that respect for him grew even more. it was then me and jong became friends too, and through this kind of unhealthy methods of lifestyle made my life grew even more interesting. who cares about concentrating on books when i could actually gamble and earn some quick pocket money. i used to be a very nerdy student, after school everyday i would take the bus home straight away, have dinner, complete my homework and go to bed. but right now, i met someone in my life, and he could also be one of the turning points in my life. Jong.
okay more of this story tomorrow when i have the time. :) i am tireddd already. night.


chapter 1 complete.

it's a monday and i think i have lots of planning to start on liao, especially for the upcoming chalet. and i just receive a call from qing wen that i will be starting my new job on tuesday. so lots of things to be completed by tomorrow. met wq billy for grandslam sunday at kok's house yesterday and they never seem to change yet in terms of their appearance and character. but i could tell from their shag faces that they have been working too hard at carrier transicold. and i heard news from them that the great legend joash ong has finally fallen in that workplace. he fainted even before lunchtime, isn't that great news? wonder if the two of them bought 4D that day, who knows it might come out the first prize?! :)
i'm still quite adapting to the life back here in singapore, one weird thing is that i am beginning to love cleaning the house when my parents are at work, maybe the area cleaning in the village has made me appreciate what cleanliness is and thus seeing my house in a mess is quite a sore to my eyes.
okay i think i better start to head to bed if not i might not wake up early in the morning to complete my journal and hand up on time in np. Lol, lots of things to accomplish, yet so lil time.

this is where our water supplies come from.


jessica me and samantha. the one in the middle is ma qian! =)


the school where the 'children of the corn' studies !



the common room where i slept for a whole week!

alright here are some pictures that i have taken during my week's stay in the village also known as ' xiao long cun'. notice the picture above has a red flag. it stands for communism, and if anyone of us makes that flag drops, we can kiss our asses goodbye to singapore. Lol! the table where the cups are place is also our heater which keeps us warm during the cold freezing night when we sleep. the third picture shows of a school, where the children of corn studies there, it can be scary at times. there was this time when me samantha louis johanna felicia taught the pre-school kids and suddenly glass pieces just came flying into the class. i lost temper after that and everything got worse. haha come to think of it i find it funny actually. :) haha

i will post more of these pics when im free again. :)

im back from yunan, china! during these two weeks in china to me was like staying there for a month, initially i wanted to come back when i first the village which was located high up in the mountains. the toilets and the staying conditions were quite rough, plus given the fact that i was not able to bathe there for a week. some reasons was the cold temperature up there and the freezing ice water collected from the well was not enough for everyone. anyway i've endured a week of torture and during this week, i did interact with the village kids and helped out with alot of stuffs that needed to be completed. okay this is all i have to say, im quite lazy to type out what i have actually done during this two weeks. i also like someone there during the trip, only my at bros know who. :) haha but like i said. if she was only 2 years younger and single, i would have gone all the way liao.