Ashamed.

I have come to apologize for all the negative words I have used on this blog. Negative opinions, feelings and thoughts regarding towards the specific people that I aimed here.

I want to clarify things here: firstly I have never wanted to become leader in ATFKERS, it's just that I realize the cliques are rather shy when it comes to organizing or planning outings. I am just trying to be nice to put in that small extra effort. And I have been too judgmental of my classmates recently, without sparing a thought for myself. This is utterly disgusting, I should not even judge people in the first place, they will get their desserts in due time.

Secondly, I am learning to cut some slack for changes in my clique. Even so, I should start by changing myself first before pointing out people's flaws, which is an act of hypocrisy. I admit I am definitely one right now. I am ashamed of this act but I will change, just give me some more time.

Thank you Trey for the wake-up call once again, "Well done is better than well said." I will heed this strong advice.

Thank you Nick for the words of encouragement and some life-related lessons that you written to me. Of course its all confidential, but I will never delete both of your emails, lest I fall back onto the wrong path again. At least looking at these emails serves as a reminder.

I am glad Wilfred will be meeting up with me this Friday, hopefully in the early afternoon before lessons. I can't guarantee but I will try my best to be on time for this meeting, courtesy from Trey once again, seriously if not I will never wake up my idea.

I am not going to delete those tags, I want to let people see the ugly side of me, blogging is about reality, I will never cover up my flaws. In this way readers will know more about me.

The road is narrow and tough, I know I will never be walking alone, I have friends who will guide me along, and of course God to carry this sinner through this life journey.

My weaknesses: I can't stay alone forever, because I will lose the focus and start to become emo, though eating helps lighten my mood, it doesn't help my pockets. I become more confident when I am with my pals, that's when I will cheer up, just like yesterday night at M hotel with my group of brothers. It was Kok's last night before his trip to Taiwan, will miss him...