Hear only the good words.

I am not sure how I want to start this topic though, especially when this period is so heated up. Nevertheless, I want to give it a try, when I have not been blogging for ages.

Been spending time alone this entire week at work with my supervisor, chatted with him on random stuffs, and I realize we share the same views on life-related matters, and I respected him as a mentor who teaches me and guides me to become a person with a higher level of maturity and not to be judgmental on people around me. Because someday, they will get their desserts, and from there, they will pick themselves and learn from their fall. Of course, my role would be to help them through this rough patch.

And from my working environment, there are also politics circulating the office. I have to admit, my supervisor has indeed been very patient with his colleagues. Another learning point for me. Why?

Because if he blows up, will people like it? No.

Well humans love to hear good things about themselves, but upon hearing flaws or mistakes about them. They change. I do change when I hear bad stuff about me, it also means embarrassment and shame and the guilt. Humans are very selfish in nature, I am also in the learning process la. But what to do?

I admit I tend to blurt out unpleasant stuffs about people, without first thinking about my flaws. I have a friend who is much more power pack than me, HAHAHA. Well there are people who just keeps quiet and go with the crowd to prevent any further disputes. How I wish I am the quiet one, just keeping my mouth shut and pretending it's a peaceful world out there. Nothing wrong about it though, it just makes life much easier. For me, life isn't easy at all. That's why I chose this path to walk with God.

Easy? Think again, it never was.

As I am trying to focus on typing, my younger brother screwed something and my mom shouted until the bloody world knows about it. I can't stand it any longer, day after day, I just feel like putting down on the shit I'm going through and running away from this city to somewhere and sit down alone and do nothing.

Like an island? With endless flow of meat and wine, so that I can get drunk everyday and live life to the fullest. But running away from all these problems will only prove one thing, cowardice.

I am going through a nightmare now, sometimes I just wish with a flick everything would go back to the way it was. But what way? Which way? The time where I was in my old self? Or have I already changed? So many things circulating through this mind of a helpless young man.

I wish I could somebody else, or changing myself now and then so that I can adapt to different people around me, so they will accept me, but not for who I am. This is reality, if you offend people around you, that's it. You just got yourself a landmine.

Nothing is good. (God = Good)

I see shadows of the people I used to be with, and we were used to be best of friends, and hope for the best, thinking it was to be set for the rest of our life after graduation, and seeing a happy ending for everyone us. Too bad... they are just going to become memories I can only keep.

Only hear the good words, or suffer the consequences if you say the wrong things